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2009-02-17T01:17:00.002+08:00

its been nearly 2 weeks since i last blogged. my computer has been giving me problems and finally i decide to send it to the doctor today at NUS science block (: thanx hanis for accompanying me (: lots of things happen since the 5 feb. and i learn many many things.

in just 5 days, i've experienced 4 deaths which makes me feel the vulnerability of life. sometimes we shouldn't take advantage of any situation we are in. maybe one moment we are happily eating dinner with our loved ones and the next everything just disappear. i dunwan myself to regret anything that i'm doing now. life short! treasure it! do what u want and persue what u like (:

besides that, the boy started work and i rarely get to see him due to my bad timing! sorry dear. will make it up to u real soon(: hahas. and i still owe u ur birthday present! oh dear =p

valentine day was spent nicely with my group of dearies! i love them! i wasn't in town that day. was in KL (: hehe! spend the night clubbing at PJ Hilton! how i love the music and the ambience there. many things happen that night which make me treasure my dears more now. 4 of us make a good team definitely and a good family for me (: i never treasure a group of people this much before. the laughter and the memories, i guess the whole thing just start to kick off for now ! i still wan a pink car!! hahas. maybe orange doesnt seem so bad =p

to nana!!! was browsing thru this good friend blog! and i saw my name! girl! u totally made my day! hahas . yes girl! 8 years of friendship and still going strong! hahas! (: jiayou in everything u do! remember i'm still here if u need me! just call or message me!! hehe

school's getting a little hectic. midterm is in 2 weeks and project assignment 1 are due-ing any time soon (: but i enjoy school very much due to the favourite subjects i can to study this sem.!

life is getting on exciting single day! i'm enjoying every single day. though its tiring but the companion is lovely. thanx for everything (: i'm gonna miss u a lot!!!

2009-02-05T09:23:00.005+08:00

the boy now works from 8am to 5 pm and i haven had the time to see him. both of us are quite tight in schedule. lols.

but when there is time, we'll meet and cam whore! hehe! wheee (: redyed my hair red and am very satisfied with the outcome (: hahas

1 more mth before i turn 20! feel so old already !!

life has been on the fun side end of last mth and beginning of this mth! new shipment of RL coming in (: hehe. flags one! anyone interested tell me. been travelling quite a bit. (: love my dear partners. guess at one point of time, u will find and experience the meaning of the word treasure. an u'll realise some things are worth more than others.

sometimes its nt the place that matter anymore. but the person u are with at that point of time. just a last note which i want the whole world to noe abt it, its that i wish and i pray and i hope that this particular group of ppl will nt meet with anymore kind of happiness and their life will finish just like that. i just hate them so much! wish they were already in hell (:

2009-01-28T08:25:00.016+08:00

woke up like a freaking 630am and felt like jogging! hahas. healthy lifestyle ah! hahas. looking at my friend success in losing weight, think i lack behind a lot already. hahas. and he looks really nice(: hahas. oh well, i'll work out. hopefully i'll perservere. usually i lack the determination if doing the whole routine alone. haha! been up since then, can't seem to sleep again.

many things going through the head. lots of thinking. hahas (: i really wan a hashbrown to fill up growling stomach now. seldom that we get mornings to ourselves cos we'll be busy sleeping. the chinese new year weekend was a long one for me. nothing much happen. looking forward to the weeks activities though. hahas!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS! (:

went to celebrate the boy's birthday yesterday, not much of a celebration just a simple date. hopefully he likes it. hahas! (: i still owe him a birthday present! =p

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING (:

didn't get him cake, got him doughnuts instead! hahas. initially wanted to catch movie but vivo was like full!! OMG!!! hai* after shopping around, headed to mount faber! i was like in a so wrong attire! lucky i brought my slippers of not heels would have killed me within 1 min! (:

but then again, mount faber is lovely for morning walks. anyone up for it? hehe

some lost soul =x

i was in a freaking dress and jacket and mount faber was hot!!!

i like this picture, pictures my life (:

and he decides to own it! hahas

while i was more demure (:

and the by insisted that we go up this super high bridge, that i think i would have died if i look down. argh! things guys wanna do that a girl will never understand.

happy boy(:

i give in to the picture. but i swear it was freaking high. my legs were like jelly!

hahas. seems like eco tourists taking pictures!

yay! (:

love u darling. hope u enjoyed ur day! (:

us (:

2009-01-26T16:02:00.004+08:00

the memories that i have always keeps me alive in times of boredom like now (: happy chinese new year to all my friends. hahas. while they collect ang bao, i busy at home count ang bao. lols!!! hmmm. went for lunch just now. for the first time i see Singapore as a ghost town, everywhere is like closed for the day!! no shopping, no nice dining area, no nth!! hahas. suntec carpark has like 2000+ lots empty! first time!!!!! hahas. went for a quick bite at marina den headed home. bbq tonight with my friends. hehe (: love the morning. love the day.

i just learn a beautiful phrase : opportunity once seized, multiplies. its very true ! =) subway my fav meal of the century!

i like this outfit!

happy girl!

2009-01-18T13:10:00.004+08:00

hahas. happy girl yesterday (: really get to chill out till late. like finally i have a relaxed saturday. initially wanted to club, headed down to town and thumper closed down :( hahas. and this happen to be the last mth of my friend's membership card! :( hahas. didn't really wanna club other places cos its a saturday night. so finally we settled down and headed to cafe delma (:

wished i brought the correct dress code (: hahas!

i realise its nt the place that matters anymore, but the companion that u are with plays a more vital role. (: love last night a lot! (:

met the boy in the afternoon for a sweet lunch at yakun suntec (: hahas! so cute la he. going to pop soon already this coming thursday (: hahas. miss u darling!

me and him (: happy 31st mth darling (:

2009-01-17T00:56:00.003+08:00

the happy girl just came back from her KL trip that she enjoyed very much! (:

coke (: hahas!

the PJ hilton club is really cool (: hahas. nxt KL trip also must go there. whee. and i love the song sway (: ! hahsa. the dance step super nice. and my partner can really dance! i wan dance with u again! hahas. happy girl.

i wanna go genting nxt week! (:

2009-01-09T17:46:00.013+08:00

finally after super long. i met my darling wenfang for tanning! hahas. i got my tan in less than an hour! (: and i got burnt. as usual! hahas.! miss her already! catch up after eons!!

i like the sun so much!

cute cute!

yay! happy gurls!

co-incidentally both of us had red fingernails!

sunglasses!

act dao!

i love her so much ! (:

me (:

hahas. tired tired!

candid by darling !

and i love this best friend of mine!

sometmes in life we just need to concentrate on what we want. if one is always busy trying to figure out someone's else life. den they are just wasting a space on earth! if u wan to noe abt my life, abt who i am going out with, abt how much i earn, abt who i keep in touch. ask me.! its my life. stop asking all the surroundings! its getting irritating enough to noe that some people just want to see u fail . hahas!

but its ok. i'm happy with all the decisions that i have made to move on ! (:

and the companion that i get everyday while moving on with everything i do (: thanx a million ! loves (:

2009-01-07T01:43:00.005+08:00

i know 2009 is a great year. even shifu says so when i went to see abt myself. people often say the stress that comes in will equate to ur results eventually. i've never been thru so much challenge before. i appreaciate all the challenges that is installed for me. but i really hope to get a solution soon! its always the last lap which is the hardest. which require all the support u need !

in life, we should just put people who are not worth it aside and treasure those who are worth the time and effort. i believe this sentence (:

my darlings + boss (taking the pix) + hazel&isk + darren. its where u go thru everything together that u feel the family bond getting closer!

2009-01-04T19:14:00.002+08:00

friday was like the start of bidding for our subjects and i didnt even feel like going back to school . though i choose to stick to my 3 day time table week (: having 2 days off! hahas. sem 1 was mon, tues and weds. sem 2 i got mon, tues and thurs! hahas. sweet!!! (: i really dunwan to go to school any more. i just wan to travel the world.! hahas.

saturday morning hit off weirdly for me. travelled to boonlay to fetch the boy from his camp so that we can have a lovely breakfast. (: though i wished things went as plan. hahas. i realise i have like only 1 mth to the boy's birthday! argh! *headache* hehe!!! (: he's gonna turn 20! hahas. i'm gonna surprise u!! hopefully i can come up with something special. =p

the evening was lovely, thans for the time, the present and the nice dinenr(: in life, sometimes the people that u choose to initially trust are the people you shouldn't. and i'm just grateful with the people who have been supporting me (:

happy new year (: great year ahead !

the boy and me (:

2009-01-03T00:41:00.017+08:00

second day of the new year and i met my pri sch friend! cheryl!! its been 7 years since we catch up! so happy. and even after 7 years i feel that we are still the same! hahas. with many many things to talk abt and never get tired! shopping or taking pictures like everywher around bugis! hahas. its so fun!!! hahas.

promise to go out again! hahas. there are many places to cam whore! hahas. lifted my spirits . thanx gurl! u're the girl (: hehe.. sorry had to leave early, had some stuff on! promise another catch up session sooon!! (:

cheryl + me!

little miss and friends! and me! (:

Mr tall looking at cheryl ....

mirror shots!

yay (: loves.

i love this picture so much!!!

same hair style !

chip and dale! hahas. remind me of my hamsters at home!

mickey graduating. wile we start school soon!

soft toys! many many

monkey clingy..

i wan many presents too!

the frog super cute ah.

us (: lovely best friends! enjoyed my day so much.

after meeting her, headed to demsey for ben and jerrys (: hahas. while discussing some stuff. thi area is always nice. quiet and calm. hahas.

ben and jerrys makes me smile!

the cow is staring at me! (: wheee

thanx for the companion (:

2009-01-02T16:11:00.003+08:00

year 2009 !!! whee~!!

end of 2008, long year for me. with my A level results and the boy going into army, with the introduction to the business worlds, mixing with the wrong company of people and knowing new friends. so many things happen that will never make me forget this year.! hahas. at least the year ended GREATLY. with me and my boyfriend coming to 3 years and business opportunities booming. school results wonderful (: looking forward to a year full of activities and wealth in 2009! . time wait for no man! do what u are suppose to do and when the year comes to an end. there will be no regrets! hahas (:

playing around at changi village on the new year eve ! (:

i love the team! plus boss dissappeared! (:

2008-12-26T01:30:00.007+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE! well, i dun celebrate christmas. but i had loads of great time (: hahas. the boy book out cos of the public holiday so i had a very sweet dinner with him. wish it was candlelight but it wasn't but it was nice! BREEKS always serve nice food. i like (:

i miss dating him! NS kills man! hahas . but i'm glad the relationship grew stronger and there is more understanding now. hahas. miss him already since he is back in camp! hahas. (:

midnight joined some friends who had fair in Changi Village. it was super fun (: the whole group was wearing RL! feels at home with them! hahas. love love =D

yay! happy girl for xmaas!! she still wans her C905 phone and the BURBERRY HANDBAG. hahas. wishes for 2009 !!

my boyfriend! hahas.

sweet picture! ahas

my darlings (: love them all! so very much! wheee~!

fair fair! hahas. everyone working. i having fun clicking pictures! hahas. as usual (:

2008-12-21T14:46:00.007+08:00

after super long! finally i get a few decend hours with th boy! hahas. went shopping at Marina square ! really miss the old days! hahas. where after sch got no where to go den slack around shopping malls! hahas (:

after that went for dinner at sakura international! nice dinner! thanx for the few hours! hahas! (: its nice seeing someone u love happy! hahas.
the girl! (:

the boy !

slacking at starbucks marina ! wheee
me (: nice background with the boy (:

FRIDAY, 19 DECEMBER 2008

met the peeps! hahas. miss them so much la! it was to celebrate kah huei and kakwai birthday (: haha! when i met huixiang at aljunied, it was so lucky that chang ming was already awake! hahas. this time they delayed for only 30 mins! an accomplishment!! hahas. oh well, zongyuan was late for 2 hrs! hahas. but he made it (:

caught twiling. thanx guys for pampering me! hahas. they wanted to watch IP man .! thanx to me. all 7 guys + me ended up in cineleisure watching twilight! hahas (: happy girl!

yijuan, mingyi and bo xiong met us up later! hahas. i had to leave early. had sth on after that. but i felt really happy at abt 8pm! there were like 11 of us! so long never have this kind of gathering! hahas! (: happy happy! nxt time when nt so busy can come out like this again! the NS boys sure have money to spend! (: i wanna watch bedtime stories!!! (: everything that is told will come true. hw i wish that will really happen in reality. things will be much easier that way (:

yijuan and me (:

huixiang .. chang ming ..

siaohwee .. zongyuan .. kakwai .. sizheng ..

huixiang .. zongyuan .. sizheng ..

2008-12-16T11:57:00.002+08:00

networking is a super fun industry to be in. making new friends and contacts everywhere u are going. (: no doubt many people condemn this industry due to the dirtiness going on inside. well, i experience and i saw it before. but what sets one person successful is their sincerity. sometimes people think they are sincere. but in the end they are still only going after money! sometimes bragging isn't everything. well. there are many many things that i learn this few days i wanna tell the whole world. but the knowledge is too much to pen down.

day after day i'm learning something. its surprising that i dun get this much previously. when u wake up in the morning and u have nth to do, waiting for the day to start with your clients, u sit down and reflect your life. and u realise god is wonderful! many horrible things can happen to u. and the worst things people can think about you. BUT at the end of the day, just be patient and you'll have the last laugh!

YOU DON'T HAVE TO EXLAIN YOURSELF TO ANYONE. YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS NEED NOT HEAR IT AND THOSE WHO HATES YOU DOESN'T BELIEVE YOU. just trust that you know what you are doing and there is nothing to hide.

you only need the closest people to go thru all your obstacles with you (: people can't hide forever, one day the truth will surface. i'm just waiting for that day!

2008-12-14T01:32:00.002+08:00

this is a random post which i just feel like voicing my opinion on something in particular. went for a meeting just now and i learn a lot (: lets visit the topics on leaders.

someone told me" in order to grow in the right path, u need the right leaders " but how many of us are lucky enough to get the right leaders? oh well, i jump into business about a year ago, my experience is not a lot and the results have yet to be seen. but i've followed a few so called 'leaders'. some call them leaders, but i might have different opinions of them.

firstly, whoever is reading this post, it is entirely MY OPINIONS, if u feel something abt this post, u are allowed to think abt it and reflect it against ur own actions but NOT ALLOWED to comment on any of my COMMENTS. well, some people might feel that his post is insulting to them, but i DUN CARE (:

leaders only exists if they have followers, i have to stress on this point and in addition these followers must have their own followers with QUALITY, if not u are just a leader of a pile of no use followers? if u are a good leaders, grooming followers is a challenge and a wonderful task not a stressful one. let me dare say, i've seen 2 leaders lead. will not name any. if u feel that it is u. den reflect like i've mentioned.

1 is someone who have die hard followers but i dare say that these followers might have grown a little frm the day they started following and stagnated after some time ? the other is someone who is forever opening new opportunities to their followers ensuring that they grow much better each day. so which leader will u choose to follow ?

next, leaders dun brag what they have but they sought after what they dont have and ensure they achieve it. no matter how good u are in the field, its not for the leader to say but for the people around them to compliment. though in this field for only a year, i've seen more leaders brag rather than staying humble. achievements can be seen, there is no reason to brag that u have this and that and u earn this and that and u have this plan and that and u are someone of some status. its not important. because by doing that, one is just trying so hard to build an image/impression in someone rather than allowing the person to judge them by their ability.

just a personal experience that i was sick and tired of leaders braging that when u think back, they are average. nothing more nothing less. just humans with brains, getting them to work so u'll have money to support yourself for survival sake.

this point is by PERSONAL EXPERIENCE. a leader NEVER bring their own people down. no matter how scared u are of something bad happening. confront that person, instead of talking behind their back. cos what goes around comes around. how long can one escape from the fate of life ? hearing from one person is never enough, it takes 2 hands to clap but how come only one hand burdens everything ? and this point can classify the RIGHT leaders from the FAKE one.

some are born leaders, these people are born to lead, with the entire package - looks, charisma, brains, determintion, popularity etc.
some are made to be leaders, born normally. these people try very hard to make themself suite the leaders characteristics. but how many actually succeed ? so far, i've seen both category. its quite clear cut who are TRUE leaders.

talking about leaders, its quite sad that we have to believe that life is unfair. some leaders THINK they are popular. popular meaning well-liked. but sometimes its otherwise.

" you are only up there when people start talking about you " its when people start talking, not u trying to persuade people that u are up there. i made a lot of mistakes in the past, but i learn a lot. piecing the jigsaw puzzle was never difficult but finding the right piece was never easy.

i dare say that sometimes we are so blinded by the current situation that we lose out a lot of opportunities out in the world. some people think richard branson is a hero, others might think he's a bastard. there is always 2 sides to everything. but one thing that will never change is the comfort zone. staying too long in one thing, scared to explore into new stuff is one definition of COWARD. many people are like that.

i'm happy with my current situation now. i don't have to brag about the leaders that i have met. because people talk about them all the time. at this point of time, i'm VERY GRATEFUL to EVERYTHING that happen to me for the past 2 mths. because without any obstacles, i'll still be blinded and miss the greatest opportunity ever.

when i let go of something, there is no turning back. not because of paiseh or anything. i just dun turn back to eat the grass that i've licked before. for now, i'm moving on to much lusher grass with juicy morning juice. i'm happy with the way my life is going on. people acn comment everything and anything behind my back. i cannot be bothered any more. i just wanna achieve the team's goal and my dreams.

thanx for everything. i really appreaciate u as MY LEADER. cos i finally found a TRUE leader

2008-12-13T13:57:00.006+08:00

the boy came over this morning. it was so sickening when my phone reception is acting like an idoit.! argh! its like i wa suppose to meet him and have mac breakfast. at the end of the day , he couldn't call thru and i got up late and hai* no breakfast for us! :( sianx!!!!

but at least it gave us some personal time to talk! (: i love personal time with him. though i only had an hour. i'm ok with it though now missing u damn bad. hahas. enjoy shopping and movie.! hahas. anyone wanna catch twilight! i dunwan the boy to waste another $8 watching the same movie with me again! hee! (: i'm a good gf ok! wheee~!

him + me = us

me (: i prefer using make up!

him (:

going out like soon (: hopefully can take more pictures thruout the day! but i'm zombed out!

11 dec 2008, Thursday

hit the dance floor last week! hahas. super nice! rocking music and nice crowd! hahas. danced will 4 am! legs cramp like hell but its super fun! hehe (: RUM JUNGLE rocks! wheee! i wan go again!!!! this time must dance longer! hahas. love the DJ there.

i realise clubbing really de-stresses me! hahas. though some people eyes cannot stop looking at other gurls. hahas. (: thanx for the dance though! appreaciate it(:

i love this pix! so nice! hahas. sweating like hell. sometimes i think dancing is much better than running 2.4! hahas. sweat more. enjoy more. make more friends. hahas (:

christmas decorations is like everywhere la! hahas. keep cam whoring. think that night only cam whored super lots. hahas. lazy upload all! (:

snowman! i wan see snow too!! hahas. merry christmas!

anywhere to count down for the new year that is NOT crowded at all!!! (:

2008-12-07T01:34:00.007+08:00

SATURDAY , 6 DECEMBER 2008

its saturday finally !!! =) but sadly i got grounded this morning. argh! came back at 4 last night and got caught red handed by mummy . so suay!!! den she dun let me go out in the morning which made me feel horrible cos i wanted to play basketball with the guys! :( darling had to fetch me frm my place to seek permission to bring me out. argh! wth!!

they should at least give me a bit of freedom since its a brand new day! :( but i dun care. thanx to darling. i'm out again! :)

love this picture (: taken in darling's car.!
went over to far east to do a little bit of shopping and whoa! all the things that i wan is in far east!! i wan a pair of boots and many many hair clips for chirstmas!!!!!

i was craving for jap cuisine so we headed down to toa payoh fork an spoon for our delight. while he enjoy his tempura set meal ............. ............. i enjoyed my teryaki chicken don (: hahas. yummy~!!

yay! he drove so we got lost . nice and cheap way to date (: though ERP kills! hahas

well, the night ended even better. though i can't be home late :( hai ** oh well, nxt week gonna club again hopefully. and i dunwan to stay at home. hahas. maybe, just maybe today and tmr i'll be a good gurl and return home earlier than usual. hahas.

though the day started off bad, it went smoothly throughout and ended with a smile on my face (:

FRIDAY , 5 DECEMBER 2008

went shopping (: wheee. after so long. headed down to orchard just to embracethe upcoming festive season (: slack at starbucks the whole afternoon befoe heading down to bugis to do some retail theraphy (:

bought a top and 3 earings (: and the happy gurl is satisfied. hahas. the best thing about life is to spend it with someone special.

love is not who u see yourself with, but who u cannot see yourself without (:

i love you!

2008-12-05T10:51:00.005+08:00

think past few weeks have been putting on weight. so guilt =p. hahas! so nw gona exercise haha! till i get back my orignal weight. argh! stress sia! post exam stress. (: miss the guys. finally can go for a game this sat. yijuan! u better come ah. i miss u. hehe =p

singapore is super boring la. 2+ no where go. see scenery. hahas. i like this pix. (:

nothing to do so cam whore at boat quey. scenery at night nt so bad. but it was like host town besides a few gigs going on.

pose pose at fullerton hotel. wheee (:

hahas. nice back ground. (:

nice lunch i had with the boy's bro this afternoon. talked abt some stuff and realise life is short so we need to enjoy life . when u enjoy life. u'll do everything u like to reach society's standard. (:

went to the pump room at clarke quay on weds. the music was good, crowd was nice(: think there will be another place i wanna club soon. hahas.

sorry had to miss the occasion at butter factory yesterday =p just dun feel like dancing last night. but will be up clubbing till wee hours tonight =) enjoying every moment in life. hahas

2008-12-03T09:27:00.002+08:00

argh! the camera sucks. i look so dark with the lighting (:

hee! anyway, yesterday was a lovely day. was an impromptu day too (: hahas. love ben and jerrys ! love demsey road! love everything now. (: enjoy life. christmas is coming. lallala..

anyone looking for christmas exchange gift can look for me (: wheee

2008-12-01T00:15:00.005+08:00

its been quite some time since i blogged, with the last paper just tmr afternoon, it marks the start of my vacation (: lots of things plan, lots of trips to be made, money to be earn, shopping to go (:

The lesson learned is to be happy in everything you do. and we must be sincere in everything we do. god is always fair, he will only give u the things u deserve. sometimes we face the down period of our lives, but god was never evil, he wuld definitely send u some friends who will stand by you dring this period of time (: hopefully, i can always be there when u need me (:

the week ended with the fair at Sengkang, Rivervale Mall. i must say that it started of awful but ended with a great wow ! (: left me and darren grinning for the rest of the night. thanx darren for the message. its really touching and i will remember everything u mentioned (:

I'm really happy - in the day when my boy picked me up for lunch, throughout the day cos my darling darren was a wonderful companion, and my love who spend the night with me consoling me (: i'm happy to have my friends who trust me now. thats all i need (:

had mac for dinner (: hahas! and HAPPY MEAL KEEPS PEOPLE HAPPY (:

Rivervale Mall fair. LOOK ! darling are u sleeping ? oh dear. hehe *grins* trust me, couldn't have done it without his help! he's really a nice buddy. loves (:

my boy! (: who went back to camp :( leaving me alone for the week again! hahas. he slim down so much which makes me guilty of not exercising so i will start my routine tmr (:

i love the way my life is now. i love the way things are now. thanx for the question just now (: hope it can remain as long as it can(:

i'm dead for tmr's paper. i didn't study a single detail about chinese history :( wish me lots of luck man!

2008-11-22T23:36:00.006+08:00

Just back from malaysia again! another fruitful trip to get away from all the stress and now stress is back on. exams are like in 2 days and i just started studying today with hanis (: hahas. thanx gurl. lots of motivation frm u. loves !!!

KL trip was peaceful (: i enjoyed my trip a lot. hahas. hopefully soon got more cash den can have meetings at other places ! wheee~!

i love my red RL !! hahas. anyone wanna buy ! inform me! got 3 colours! pink. red and black! hehe. wheeee~!

had subway for breakfast. 1 thing i like abt malaysia is that everything is practically halal! so i can munch on anything without having to find the halal certificate .!

hahas. pose pose! my red RL!! wheee

the back! 3 horse! multi colour!!

the day ended with a drink at coffee bean.!

I miss KL already! the fun and the companion (:

darling will be back soon! i miss him so much! hahas. love u baby (:

2008-11-17T00:37:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING BOY - DARREN

finally after 11 mths u turn 18! shure super happy tonight ! (: enjoy ur birthday, go have fun! hahas! go splurge! just for once, let go of everthing and enjoy! really glad that we're still super close after so many stuff that happen ! hahas.! like i said before and gonna repeat myself - i'll support any decision u make and i will be here if u need me ! met u for less than half a year but u've become one of my trusted friends ever.! *p.s writing this makes me miss changming and the rest* hehe. things that i promise u before, i'll give my word that it will happen. cos thats wad i really wan ! jiayou in everything u do! SCREW IT! JUST DO IT! is what u always tell me and is what we should live by it every single day! (: and u better catch some sleep to get beautiful flawless skin (: so that u can be yan dao tmr! hahas!

wheee~! a few more days kakwai and kahuei birthday! hahas. apparently all my good friends birthday always seems so close to one another.!

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today was a super marathorn for me. went to meet hanis in the afternoon den i marathorn my geog for the whole afternoon. i got up from the seat to only go toilet and get a drink! super proud of myself! exams is in less than a week and i just started feeling a little pressured cos i'll spend half my time next week out of Singapore. oh dear, what is going on with me man! hahs. i so badly wanna go shopping. i wanna get a pair of boots! hahas and my C905 is super freaking beautiful! gonna get it once the baby boy is back from brunei. that is if he gets it (: den i'll finally have my couple phone with hiM! wheeeee~!

life is so full of surprises! went to pasir ris park for a walk after my studying den i saw a white pony. it was so beautiful (: the pony gave me a feeling of freedom. i dunno why it was so sudden. it just is! and i'm drained so gonna rest for the night!

plus 2 ppl made my day today! hahas. one if my bestie gurl, fang (: and the other, my other darling(: hahas!!! wheee~! i really believe friendship goes round and round in a circle where there is no end. once best friend will always remain as best friend. i'm so glad the air is cleared up ! hahas. i love u gurl! a lot (: hahas

i'm a happy gurl today! (: the most important lesson that i learn when we face our life is to be sincere in everything you do and things will go the way it should be!

2008-11-15T14:30:00.002+08:00

life has many turns upon many roads. and the road ahead of me has a huge turn last night. i had to make a decision. when everything comes throwing back at u, life forces u to make a decision. and i made a huge decision last night, i found my focus, i found my passion and i found my end goal. i finally find what i really want. and i made my decision last night. got blessings and i'll move on.

I know i'm very stubborn, heard it many times from many people including my parents. i guess it has its good and bad. bad cos i will never listen to anyone. good cos i really know what i want and its not gonna be easy to influence me to change my mind. Critical decisions always come when life decide to surprise u. its not easy to settle down on a decision but it takes a lot of courage. just believe in the truth, life is fair i realise. if we try so hard to bring one down, we will be brought down instead. so why bother who is up there when we ourself got so much to accomplish in this short life ?

being able to open our eyes when we wake up in the morning is a gift to us. cos tmr may never come. treasure the life and do what u must do to achieve ur dreams.

unintentionally, my decisions and actions might have cost me to lose my friends and closest one but i always believe that they will eventually know the truth. as for my character, its really straightforward. if i am in the wrong, i apologise. if i am right, i will go for my decision 100% . to me, there is no time for turning back. life is short.

in life, there will people who hates you, but don't forget those who love you. there will be people who despise you, but there will also be people who admire you. there will be people who disagree with you, but there will be people who agree with you. there are some who are jack of all trades, while there are others who are master of one. i prefer to look at life optimistically. (:

the boy left for brunei this morning. and i started missing him already. come back faster! miss u already darling.

2008-11-14T02:09:00.015+08:00

went to school super early in the morning just to hand up my chinese essay! celebrations!!! completed all assignments!! (: that leaves exams! haha!

met hanis after school with the intention to start studying. and i swear that it was so hard to start the studying engine after not studying for so long! argh! :(

but i did manage a few topics in geog (: hopefully i can still remember what i revised! oh dear, exams is such chore! hate it man!

we were drained after 4 hours! (: that leaves me enjoying my night. impromtu decision made and my nice, sweet friend brought me to Sentosa cos i wanted to catch the song of the sea show.!

yay! happy (: i get what i want!

Song of the sea! Sentosa! worth the watch!

Oscar and me! (:

the lightings were really beautiful and the story that went along with the lighting was splendid! really admired the whole presentation! the goddess of light!

nice blue water fountain!

Lovely red-pink water fountain!

white!

Pricess Amy!

nice splashes!

i love this picture!!!

it looks really nice!

fireworks ended the story and it was beautiful! trust me, it was worth the $8 (:

i wanna owe this car. its so pretty! hahas. thanx for the night. i manage to destress (: had a good long chill out at sentosa after the show, thought through various stuff and its time to get back on track with my life. (: something big is gonna happen and i gotta be ready! (:

hanis darling! i love u! no matter what happen, i'm always here for u (: keep on smiling girl cos u'll never know who is falling for the smile of urs.

i miss my baby boy =p

2008-11-11T01:40:00.008+08:00

someone sent me this really nice email. and i really wanna share it with the whole world. but i can't possible email every single soul alive. so i hope anyone that come across this blog . i can share my joy with u guys =)

make sure you know who is important in your life and who is not. family and friends are hidden treasures, seek them and treasure them. As for those who are just taking you for a ride, forget about them. why waste 1 min of your time on these people when that min can be spent on someone or something that is more worthy!

we don't owe anyone any explanation. we only have ourself to explain! if we start explaning too much, people will start having misconception. if we don't explain, people assume. believe in yourself. why waste our breath on people who don't even trust us ? it is not the truth that is important but what is perceived as the truth. but is that perceived truth important to u ? if not, LET IT GO!

everthing we face always have 2 choices. some people make stupid choices but then again it is the choices you make that set the path of your life for u. if u really wan something, put it 100% and go for it! SCREW IT! JUST DO IT! hang on to your dreams!

stop procastinating. why keep saying something if nothing is being done? never say something when you don't mean it. cos at the end of the day, you will regret what u say. be sincere and be honest to yourself and to the people around you. if not, you will just be standing at the losing end.

the truth always hurts but does that mean we must stop ourself from facing reality ? never lie, cheat or steal in life. always strike a fair deal. life will move smoothly for you. (: open ur eyes and see things as they really are, why would one want to live in a world full of lies?

once you give someone your word, make sure it is done. unless that someone eventually is not worth ur promises, if not do what u promise. take control of your own destiny. decide your own path! cos that will be the mission you are here for.!

enjoy life today: yesterday is gone and tmr may never come. why wait for tmr if things can be done today? oppotunity come once, grab it. leave those that are not worth while behind. never look behind and regret instead look forward and achieve. (:

there are always people better than us, while there are others that are worst than us. appreciate everything that god give us. cause that is always the best for us. you are unique amongst all of nature's creature and nothing can replace you.

while analysing this email, i found the true meaning of value. i really value what i have today and i will treasure the opportunity that will be coming tmr. i know what i really want. life is a game of chess, one wrong move and you're out. (:

i treasure the person who sent me this email. thanx for helping me further understand myself and my dreams. loves (:

2008-11-09T12:05:00.013+08:00

last essay due this weds and i'm free from all assignments. (: this is a super great news though exams are like round the corner! :( well. after exams, i wan travel!!! (:

went out with the darling boy for a decend date yesterday since he's going to brunei next week for 2 weeks. spend this weekend with him. haha! i'm so gonna miss him. he can't even msg cos there is no reception in the jungle. the communication industry is so bias! how can they bypass jungles? *gosh* i enjoyed my date. (: went to catch the james bond movie! so long since i sat down in the movie theatre to catch a show.

i didn't understand the whole show actually, but the actions were good + i enjoyed just sitting beside the boy enjoying his presence . spend a lot snacking. hahas. had long john for lunch. den ben and jerrys inside the theatre den secret receipe for dinner (: hahas. sacrifise my figure for today =p next week back to dieting and swimming! wheeeee~!

i love this boy! very much! DARLING . TAKE CARE OF URSELF WHEN U ARE IN BRUNEI. (:

i like my clothings!! hahas. so long since i wear the top.

we were just enjoying our walk in suntec when we saw this sign: why wait for the weekend?

den farhan cracked a joke.

farhan: cos i'm in camp during the weekdays bodoh!

den i laughed so loud i think the surrounding people were staring at me. i was like " who in the world would have came up with that answer so innocently " but it fits the whole thing so well. hahas! the boy's a genius! (:

so cute right. i so wanna pinch that cheeks!

yay! walking down the road of my life ? hahas. oh well. whatever!

and i think we're a lovely couple (:

7 Nov 2008

(: had pizza hut with my darlings! and poor thing for darren who carried everything to and fro from the fair.! thanx darling (: u're the best. den towards the night, the few of us got nuts and started cam whoring at marina square.! we went bongkus! esp. me =)

bye bye! i going for holiday le! hahas! wheeee

this is how much stuff the boy carried. :( i feel guilty! =x sorry!

darren and me (: and barney the purple dino! hahas used to watch every episod of barney when i was younger!

and behind barney was bert and earnie! hahas. i feel 6 years old again that night. due to all the intense stress i'm having. i think the brain wire is breaking. =p

next week is full of meetings and trips and rushing my essays out and studying for exams! i'm a super gurl man! (: mummy will be so proud of me . haha!!! i wana dance!!!!!!

2008-11-04T13:36:00.007+08:00

i've never linked any blogshop to my blog or from my blog before. but today i shall have fun (:

http://www.designreference.blogspot.com/

support support (: hahas. the rl gurls stocks are coming. so pretty! (: wheeeeeeee!! happy state of mind !

2008-11-03T02:16:00.004+08:00

this sign is so true! came across this while dating my boy today! hahas. i was like "wow! people should take notice man" went for sweet lunch date at popeyes today! cos he going brunei next week :( sobx. my boy is soOoooooOOooOOoo handsome! oh dear, i'm engrossed in hiM! save me! (: and dear is so sweet! hahas.

after lunch, we walked around Singapore flyer area and i found 2 cute soft toys. which i think i will eventually get it as a couple gift! i love white tiger! and there is a brown one.

baby boy with his tiger!

me with my white cute little tiger!

was looking thru a chinese website :

tigers are the cutest animal ever! The Tiger is said to be lucky vivid, lively and engaging. Another attribute of the Tiger is his incredible bravery, evidenced in his willingness to engage in battle or his undying courage. Maybe he’s so brave because he is so lucky. But the Chinese say a Tiger having a Tiger in the house is the very best protection against the evils of fire, burglary.

overall, i'm really happy today! i enjoyed my afternoon with my darling and yet enjoyed the night slacking too! just hope i can achieve my dreams since he is now supportive of my upcoming decision (:

2008-11-02T00:54:00.023+08:00

malaysia trip was fun (: 3 days 2 nights. wooo! hahas. can't wait to go again. was suppose to be a leisure trip but god arranged it to be a business trip! hahas. really enjoyed and celebrated after deals were made! wheeeee~!

i believe that every bend of life's long road there are surprises. we just need to be brave enough to accept all coming challenges and move on! (: cos in today's world, only the fittest survive!

as usual. went up by bus . and the journey was like 5 hrs long. its was sleeping marathorn for me (: first day was super successful. sold a lot of baju in the afternoon den went clubbin at night. wheee! malaysia clubs are like so diff frm singapore. i like movida much better. cos it was one of the singer who is a friend of mine. her band's last day. so we went to support her (:

and it was HALOWEEN! scary ah. everyone was so well-dressed. i feel under dressed. hahas. stressed :p
the very happy gurl that night

her band!

halloween decorations

scary ghost!

the witch!!

the masked man! oh my. save me!~

nora! (: zombie!

the king of cards!

the soldier of the king

yay!. was dancing till 3am! hahas. sweat like hell. it was such a wonderful exercise. love dancing so much! hahas. could have rock the dance floor. but it was too crowded. haha !

second day was also fun! hahas. unexpectedly, clinched a few deals and after that we went for k box-ing.! hahas. hardwork pays off. den we cebrate!

i wore my raulph lauren today! heee

yay! sing till so happy!

old town white coffee serves nice hazelnut latte(:

i so didn't wanna come back on the third day! was hoping they i lost my ticket and can extent the trip till Sunday! hahas. i realise friendship always go round and round. from my secondary school friends till today, i treasure everyone for the bonding that we have towards each other. the emotional and moral support. glad that i have lovely friends.

gonna work harder this 2 weeks, earn some cash and fulfil my nxt KL trip cos i wanna go genting for dinner! hahas. countdown: 2 weeks! (: loves

going out with my boy for a lunch date! he's going brunei nxt week! :( sobx! i miss him already!

2008-10-28T11:57:00.002+08:00

saturday left me with so much memories i forgot what i did on sunday =p haha! anyway, am really bored in the lecture theatre and so decide to blog so that at least there is sth for everyone to read if they come across the blog.

and so deepavali was spent nicely cos i was SHOPPING! in a long time i didn't shop cos i didn't know what to buy along with the thinking that i shop in Malaysia nowadays as i'm there almost every fortnight. but oh well, who can resists buying nice clothes? was at vivo and i bought a top and shorts at niich. was looking around for earings, bangles, boots and skirts. but couldn't find something that satisfy me. so gonna shop somemore when i'm in KL on thursday (: and hopefully we get to go genting for dinner for awhile! *excited*

got a salvatore ferragamo fragrance perfume as a gift. and falling in love with the smell! hahas. its really sweet (: and so i'm a happy girl these few days.

2008-10-26T02:29:00.021+08:00

been really happy these few days. got my rest on friday (: and dyed my hair red ! weee. finally the colour i really want! left one more essay - chinese!! i wanna ace !! whoooo!

really the smile that i wan to have everyday!

finally uploaded all the pictures (: so happy today. been a really wonderful day and i couldn't ask for more. went for a really sweet date with the darling boy after so long.! finally the decent date which i have been waiting for. met him in the afternoon and we went ahead with our plans to Sentosa (: at first was lazy, but i couldn't resist the lovely sun plus i alreay wore my tan suite. (:

i love this boy! happy 28 mths baby (:

black + white sun glasses!

the sun was so tempting la. once we step onto the beach. both of us were sweating like hell. bought a bottle of sun tan lotion. den as usual i fall asleep on the sand =p while he tan. and god! my boyfriend has a really nice body which i cannot stop looking! hahas. *squeal* i'm like super tired and super hot. the nap left my face burnt! :(

smelly smelly tan lotion smell so had no choice but to take a cool bath. coudn't go into the water as the boy didnt bring extra shorts. hahas. dunwan waste money to get new one. hee! this is like the first time we really dated at Sentosa and i really enjoyed myself. the only thing is that we're too early to catch the song of the sea! and i wanna catch it sooN!!!!!

my hair colour is super bright la.! hahas. lucky darling said nice. jiahao commented nt nice. my friends say nt bad but look like ah lian. oh wadever! i love it! (: as long as it nt gold. i love it!

we didnt want to head home to early, so we walked around Sentosa. realising that everything that we want to do must pay! $$ :( argh! Singaore = money leaching country! its like nth is free! the joke that we made was that soon Sentosa would soon have an erp system! argh. wads wrong with paying lesser. an entry to the merlion was a freaking $8. cannot stand the system man! so we cam whore at places which are publically free! and the picture looks like i'm trap in some castle window! hahas though still smiling happily!

and dear is like thinking far from the world he is from. but i love his pose! so natural! (:

the scenery behind me is so pretty! hehe (:

hahas.! darling playing ard!

i'm playing ard! (:

i feel so small compared to him! hehe

my boy friend twin! hahas. year of the rat! (:

the wonderful scenery!

sunset! (:

i really had a wonderful time today. glad that i cancel everything i had today just for my boy. 28 mths being together with him but the dates feel like we just started the relationship! i'm glad that i'm together with him. NO ONE can replace him !

22 October 2008

after staying home the whole day, went out in the evening. (: had BEN and JERRY's ! so wonderful! hehe (: this place is super isolated but super nice! hehe.

i love the place and definitely love the brand!

who can resist 2 scoops of ice cream with chocolate brownie and fudge topping must be nuts! esp, when the ice cream is from ben and jerrys. thanx for the treat (:

i am obviously enjoying the food, the ambience and the music! (:

this gurl has bee having the best time of her life. and life means to treasure those u really love and to give them the best u have(:

i found a wonderful business partner and i really appreaciate him (: thanx for everything that u've done for me. i appreaciate it so much!

though the late nights are taxing due to school the nxt day, been feeling really sick recently but its passion. i love what i am doing! (:

lastly, had a really nice chat with my boy! i only got 2 words - thank you! thanx for being there for me. thanx for saying all the supportive remarks. thanx for sharing the same dreams as me! i'm blessed(:

2008-10-22T12:14:00.002+08:00

2 subjects down and 2 subjects more to go! (: projects are completing! south Asian and english are finally far back in my mind. left with physical geog and chi essay to complete.! argh! geog is still ok for me. but chi history is killing. wonder why i ever wanted to study this subject. enough about school . nothing much exciting happen cos i haven been going for lessons and staying in school long enough to catch up with the excitement here. not to mention, exams start right after my project datelines are due. :(

but i've been livin my life off! going home super late at night (near dawn) . Singapore night life is BORING man! there's nth much to do besides slacking and more slacking. well but been behind the wheel more than once! *proud of myself* =)
went for a singing session last night! sing till got no voice! (: it was like 3 am when we left the place and i was still singing in the car and when we went to eat. the songs are stuck in my head! so fun! (: i'm just beginning to enjoy life at the age of 19. and i'm glad i started before hitting the 20s! hahas.

still deciding if wanna club tonight. haven been having much sleep. coming home late at night do not compromise with my homeworks. have fun yet study smart! (: the eye bags are sOooOO ugly! save me someone. photos will upload soon! hehe

cant wait saturday! going tanning with my darling boy! wheeeeeee~! have fun! (: live life to the fullest!

CHANG MING! i wan go out with u guys again! miss u guys so much. yijuan miss me too! hahahas! gurl. miss me we go out for lunch ah! =) jiayou for ur assignments!

2008-10-18T23:43:00.015+08:00

been long since i blogged! lots of assignments due. lots of work to complete. exams are around the corner. trips are everywhere.! life is picking up for me. it feels like its on the mountain. if i stop the momentum, everything will just turn back zero! :( but i have my lovely frens to support me! hahas. so i'm gonna move on! and i have my darling boy with me! i'm the luckiest person alive nw!

i like this picture so much! hahas

just back frm a trip to KL. it was so wonderful. done the work and had lots of fun! went to club and k boxing. slept at 4 am for 2 nights. its so fun! and my dream is to shop at Pavillion shopping centre with stacks of 100 bill notes in my pocket.! i'm so gonna achieve it! (: i love burberry! hehe. i'm gonna get everything i like without hesitatioN! 2 mths frm nw! thats my target (:

me right in front of Pavillion!

just name any brand, everything can be found there (: so happy! i like the street so much. used to hate brands. but i realise in society. class is important. and brands represent class! nt every one can afford. but i noe if they wan. they can (: and i wan!! shopping with my frens are the best things ever!

look so grand (: the lightings are also beautifuL!

purple+yellow
red+green
clubbing! hahas. seems to be addicted. and clubbed till 4 am. it was an eye opener ah! really eye opener. its so different from Singapore's concept! hahas. danced till i went crazy! (:

yay! got car drive us around for the 2 days! hahas. wanted to drive so badly . but they said it was dangerous. and when it rains in malaysia. jams can go up till 3 hours. and i was straving really bad that day :(

came back frm the trip and met my baby boy! miss him so much la.! finally got time spend with each other.! he look so sweet today. since Singapore was getting boring. we went for a ''no need to sped so much money'' date. =p he drove dwn to ikea and we admired the designs there.! hahsa. we cam whored as usual! haha. and i miss him so bad!!!

nice lights!
flower on the head
fruits on the head
my lovely boy and me!
his ice cream!
my ice cream! hehe
and i had a lovely time today with my boy! he visited mummy for hari raya! hahas. and mummy was so happy to see my boyfren. my sister too!

and for that. i love u more baby! muackx.

2008-10-15T01:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 28TH MONTHS DARLING!!!

its been 28th mths dwn the road. and i love this boy so much! we'll last. i know cos the tests that put us through made the relationship stronger! (: and no matter what, no one could ever take ur place. last time, now and even in the future. it was proven that no matter wad, i'll always stick to u.. i love u baby boy! (:

2008-10-14T01:01:00.010+08:00

my goeg darlings!

finally we complete our geog project, it was fun and texing! (: hahas. but working with these 2 lovely girls makes my project more fun than ever. all the river sight seeing with hanis, talking loudly with azzie in the quiet library. it was fun!! really looking forward to work together in future if there is projects!!! (:

and i have english essay and south Asian essay to complete!! argh! dun these homework ever dissappear ?

11 October 2008

happy happy. i love him!!
my boyfriend!!!
enjoying his double whooper!

went to teach really early in the morning and i am so lack of sleep after clubbing again on fri night! it was so fun la! i was so high! stayed on till 4am at st james! (: den after that headed to kallang mac for breakfast! i've been clubbing twice this week! oh dear!! whats going on with me!! dance is so lovely! i love dance so much la!!

after teaching, headed to kallang mrt to wait for the guys who were usually late even though i met them an hour after the arranged time. went to mr naufal's house for hari raya cum his daughter's birthday celebration!

even after 5 years of graduation, some of us in uni, some in poly, some went to NS. the bond and memories are so strong. friendship is something nothing can buy. A good teacher doesnt just teach knowledge in school. he teaches us life skills. (: and i think i learnt a lot from mr naufal. he's one teacher that leaves great memories in us.

weiyi and sunnee aso joined in. and i haven seen them since like 8 mths ago ? was really happy (: well, what are friends for ? really love the friends that i have. nothing can change the relationship we have. though we seldom see each other, but the conversation topics just doesn't die down.

after that went to meet the boy cos i miss him so much through out the week and no matter how hard or how short the time is, i need to see him (: headed to sengkang cos he wanted so badly to eat a burger! hahas! he looks s cute eating the big big burger la! hahas. baby got me chocolates though i was on diet! i accepted! and my dream phone will be out by nxt mth! hopefully both of us will carry our couple phone by 15 dec our 2 and a half years anni! hahas.

i wont leave u darling! hahas. u're mine (:

weiyi and me (:
chang ming and me (:
nana and me (:
us and mr naufal with his cute daughter!!

10 october 2008

chang ming enjoying ah!
hahas! clubbing!! (:

went out with the cute chang ming cos i owe him a meal! (: and i fulfil it !!! hahas. went to swensens. while i happily savour the taste of the topless 5 ice-cream, he was disecting the fish and chips he ordered. he was so engrossed that he didnt even know i took a picture! i realise swensens serve bigger servings during the weekdays as compared to the weekends. so bias one!!

and that night, went clubbing so unexpectedly!! (: but i enjoyed! hahas.

2008-10-10T13:11:00.003+08:00

yay! the happy gurl who is enjoyin her life! (:

Wednesday 8 october 2008

been a long long time since i blog and i finally have the time to update. been a crazy and fun-filling week! hee! after the last paper on tuesday. i've been having more fun after fun! (:

weds is always a short day in school for me! hee! so after my tutorial (an hour) i left sch and join mummy at Bugis!! went to shop for my hamster house cos the 2 mummy hamster successfully gave birth to 13 small hamster making the rate of growth exponential ! and den pei her walk walk awhile den went home to rest since after that i'm going to have a super cool night!

didnt came home! instead went clubbing at st james! too bad i didnt take any pictures! it was not as bad as my thoughts abt clubs were. actually it was quite a decend place. besides dancing and dancing till the wee hours, there was nothing much to do except drink. since i can't drink. i could only dance! and it was like exercising, sweating all over in the cold movida room! but the gurls were hot ah! the singers, their body was like whooo! gym-ing makes the body perfect! and i'm so addicted to clubbing now, i just feel like going again and again! (:

after that, headed to east coast at 4am intending to find that dumbass jiahao cos he was having a chalet. which person in Singapore can't differenciate downtown east and east coast ''-_________- oh dear! hahas. and so i sat at east coast till 7am before heading for breakfasts with my friends. came home, did some of my homework and headed out again! fruitful 48 hours without sleep! just having fuN! (:

thursday 9 october 2008

went to find one of my closest friend. well, i miss him. hahas. and to me is that, when u miss a person, just go find them and things will turn out really great. had a really nice chat and i had a great time. sometimes i wish things will go back to last time. but its not possible i guess. circumstances change :( thats why it suck to lose a friend.

but i guess, friendship will just go on and on.! hahas! life's short, you live once. treasure those dearest to you and let go those that are not worth keeping! and enjoy life! been experiencing life's test so much this month! a very enjoyable month i'm having (: lots of responsibilities suddenly! and i've let someone down once for not being responsible, i dunwan to repeat my mistakes! i'm so gonna chiong for the time being that decide for a smooth sail after setting all the direction right.! (: happy happy that i know my friends still treasure me!

after that met jiahao! happy birthday my dear darling jiahao! been frens for almost 7 years and i really treasure u though u can be a gong at times (: hahas. but no matter wad, you're my best bud (: enjoy a fruitful sweet 19!

meeting chang ming in a few hrs time! so much catching up to do! so little time! oh dear (: and sat with my sec sch frens to mr naufal hse and den dinner with darling boy! i miss him so much la!! hahas (: enjoy life! my motto this mth!!!

2008-10-07T12:57:00.003+08:00

i've been looking at this picture for half of my lecture. SHE HAS A FREAKING HOT BODY AND NICE FACE! oh dear! hahas. and i like that pink pony on the freaking shirt! hahhahahhaha! i'm so gonna get one!! anyone want one shirt too ? =)

after studying hard for (hmmm.) 2 days. i could do my test today which i proudly found out about it last tuesday only. =) been playing so much! oh dear!

daddy brought us for a lovely breakfast on sunday morning which after that i went out to study and play again till late ''-______________-

" as long as u get ur A's, we are happy " and thats my parent's comment. so ok. i'll studie for the As =) and i want nice abs. i think i put on a bit of weight during the new year with so much visiting and nice food. hahas. i'm so gonna work out nxt week since this week will be full of dancing and basketball=p

this is going to sound as random as i always am - i love geog ! =) and i miss my baby boy!

2008-10-04T19:49:00.004+08:00

my third sister =D

the boyfriend had course today so couldn't meet but its ok. i saw him twice this week (: and woke up to revise a little bit on my english before heading down to geylang west to play ball with my darlings! (: the funny thing was that it was pouring at my place and it was sunny at kallang ''-_________- i couln't understand at all! so i turned up in jeans and teeshirt! argh! it was hot la! playing basketball in that attire! and i got burnt again on the face! painful!!! :(

so happy to see them. its been like almost 9 mths since i last went to the court to play with them! everyone was like ''bibi here!'' hahas. feels like i made the grand enterence! well. i realy miss them a lot. so for the time being when the boy is busy, i'll join them for games! feels like old time! =) next week mr naufal house!! remember guys!!!

after that went shopping with my sister! (: bought a dress. weee~! i realise during the short week break the resolutions that i made, i managed almost every of them (: whooo~! target met!

2008-10-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

went to darling's house today to visit his mummy and aunty for raya! at first was super nervous la. he was like " all my couz, uncles, aunties dwn frm KL" i was like " err .. " hahas. but they were super friendly. and i like his family.! second raya with them this year! last year wore purple. this year black.! hehe. hopefully i can save enough to go holiday at South africa in 2010 with his family (: i love my boy! and yes. a lot of ppl ask if we are still together. YES! TO THE WHOLE WORLD. WE ARE STILL TOGETHER! AND I LOVE HIM (:

happy happy gurl !

i love my darling boy (:

1 october 2008

had a super nice hari raya on weds! but then my grandmother had to spoil the day. but like whatever la. i couldn't be bothered much.! the ultimate question " which sec level are u in? " which makes me super happy cos i feel young! hehe! wheeee~!

well. mummy and daddy rushed 10 houses that day. was really tired when i reach home at midnight. cos the small brother had PSLE and both of mu sisters had exams! oh dear! so i had to cut short this year hari raya! i miss my cousins and nieces and nephews!

and this year, 3 of us happen to look like triplets (:

this year hari raya colour! (:

2008-10-01T09:39:00.002+08:00

Tuesday 30 Sep 2008

i finally met him on Tuesday after 6 mths!!!!

tmr is already Hari Raya. i can't even pay full attention during lecture. i'm in the mood, in the atmosphere already. though this year not as happening as last year but its raya. who could miss this occasion ? and darling got a half day off camp! so i skip tutorial just to meet him and i've never really been so happy before. He made me smiled and laugh the whole train ride from clementi to bugis! hahas.

we were suppose to go to concourse to get some party stuff for his house guests tmr! hahas. and being a frequent visitor of Bugis, i didn't know where concourse was! argh! so we spent 30 mins walking under the super hot sun and both of us were already sweating like hell. but it was sweet. been so long since we just got lost. love this kind of dates!

and finally we got to concourse just to discover that concourse shopping centre is under construction and the shop was relocated to where we first started - oppopsite of bank of China ''-_______________- how co-incidental can everything be!

finally! i'm so gonna remember this place!

i just found out i had a mid term exam nxt week! argh! how close can it be? but its ok! raya first. salam lebaran was always as nice. and the new anugerah winner - Alif is super cute and darling told me he's only 17!! wow. i feel old suddenly! hahas

this year colour theme is blue!!! hahas. going out soon. upload the pictures tonight! and i love raya cos grudges are all left behind!

to all my friends : kalau Reena ada salah silap, maaf zahir dan batin (:

2008-09-30T00:59:00.004+08:00

we look cute =p
my boy!
i love him! =)

these are the photos i owe for damn long =p and darling been waiting for them! hehe

yesterday(sunday) was full day at home with my family =) feel so bonded and happy! hee. long time since everyone really stayed at home.

today(monday), since i'm blogging after midnight i guess today means tuesday but i wanna blog abt monday so yea. and this gurl loses her money to the shoe brand known as everbest! oh dear! the first time i bought a pair of heels for $140 without thinking and i did the same thing again today! but i'm satisfied and happy. calculated my budget, just need to work a little harder to close more sales and everything will be worth it! hehe. i love my new shoe! look so sleek and elegant! and GSS is back!!!! whooo. that means shopping!!!!!!!

school was great with me and hanis sleeping thru south Asian study lecture as the lecturer forgot our break. argh! after lecture, had a small chinese test which i'm banging hard to get full marks! hehe. (:

had pizza for dinner and hersheys pie from burger king after that i bought another ice cream from 711. i dunno why but i just feel like gorging down all the ice cream in the world. :(

can't wait for tmr, i'm so gonna skip tutorial to fetch my baby boy frm camp so we can date. hehe! till den i'm loving life as it is! =)

2008-09-26T23:59:00.002+08:00

went dinner with the boy's family! hahas. faruq birthday today! and the boy's brother turns 24 ! so old. expecting him to get married like in 2 years so that i can carry his cute baby! long term planning that is (:

had a really wonderful time today. been super long since i had a nice dinner with his mummy and aunt. just nice me and faruq both studied in school, so his mummy fetch us first before heading all the way to jalan bahar to fetch the boy! trust me if i was studying in NTU i would have visited him everyday! =)

his SCDF camp is like far from everywhere. oh dear :( poor thing my boy! hahas. but he looks really handsome in the white shirt and black dress pants. so formal so shuai! *screams*

had swensens for dinner =) the usual for me and the boy had his mega burger. to me it was not so mega after all. anyway i never really like the swensens at paragon there. i always think they overcharge the price and under serve the food. *oh well*

after dinner, went for prayers den the 2 boys got super excited over the f1 race thats held tmr that they drove down near the course just to take a look! i dunno. if the whole track was filled with prada, gucci, tods, LV, YSL handbags and shoes, i would have gladly squeal along with them (:

anyway, i had the best night ever. and darling, i love u =) i so want to spend 24 hrs with u !! hahas. hopefully i can see u nxt week. if not it'll be 2 weeks before i can see him again. this is torturing.!

and i really need to start studying cos i realise everything is piling and the recess week is ending and i am in the new year mood of collecting money and not in the mood of doing anything. save me someone!!!!! *dreams*

2008-09-25T01:18:00.002+08:00

thanx jiahao for the day (: for once i will not call u idoit! hehe. since today he was so nice to accompany me after school to do some last min shopping for some event. hahas! but to no avail cos i didn't feel like spending today!

so headed to jiahao's place. and trust me after 7 years of frenship. this is the first time i went to his place! and yes idoit! hahas. u need a girlfren to clear the mess. i'll try to hook u up with some housewives =p

anyway. thanx for the day. thats the main thing. and thanx for the concern at midnight when i was still hanging around(:

while talking to my fren while hanging out just now. i learn how to let go. cos if u hold on to something really tight, it will just suffocate and die. but when it is meant to be urs, it will never leave ur side. cos no one can ever snatch it away from you.

darling Brunei trip shifted to November, leaving me more time to see him ((: i miss the boy!!

2008-09-24T01:14:00.003+08:00

i dunwan to stop smiling. cos thats what keeps me going (:

hahas! the day ends with a smile on my face!! =) i was so stressed up today that i had no mood to do anything. cos of the slight fever i had this morning i cancelled my school activity! haha

and the cure to my fever - chang ming!!! hahas. he suggested basketball at geylang west! which brighten up my day, remove my fever and put a smile back on the stressed face! chang ming. i miss geylang west so much! the court was empty so 2 cute students. one wearing manjusri pe tee (which made us really miss sec sch days) the other in sports wear occupying the whole area!

and we talk and talk about the old days where basketball and soccer after school was highlight of our secondary life (: and had a match, while my skills deprove like a million time i won chang ming at the second round! haha. guys, ain't you proud of me (: and chang ming owe me rice for a mth! hahas. if i can tahan the thirst, i'll join u guys for a game this sat morning. *promise*

went over to chang ming's place and i miss the feeling where the guys used to come over to play their soccer game and i slept on the sofa due to the tiredness ! hahas. i miss the old days. so carefree!

and after my appt, headed to kallang to just calm my mind down to think of my next step in my life. its life-changing. and the horses are real !!!! ohmy !!!! *grins* just an internal joke with my partner.!

and suddenly i learnt a lesson - humans are scary! they really are. dun ask why. i dunno. its just my instinct. oh dear :( kill me for trusting ppl too much. i'll stick to my old frens. -period-

time line .............................
my birthday this year!!
my birthday last year (:
D days (: hahas. love them much!!

2008-09-22T22:58:00.003+08:00

i just happen to read a blog of a friend of mine and she mention that blogs are public domain and at any point of time, we never know the end reader of our writings and comments. this is really important to all bloggers. no matter what you decide to post up today - be it photos or comment. it must be ready to be circulated around the world. cos the internet platform is one where i admit is bounderless. its like globalisation. there is no end to it. we dunno who benefits and who doesn't. but i did mention at the beginning of the intro to my blog that its just a space where i let go of my opinions. i just release things which swims across my mind. the end reader of the blog can interprete it in any sense they wan and one must get ready for it. its scary to have a blog. but i personally find it challenging. anyone can be everyone they want to be on the internet. and interpretations by people can be a mistake. thats the challenge i like (: its being who you really are and who you really wanna be that keeps you going in the generation today.

internet is just a wonderful yet harmful invention in this age today. while doing my projects and when i read up research and comments, i began to be doubtful about the credibility of all the stuffs uploaded onto this platform. the world starts to change to an ambiguous stage where everything is on the grey area. its fun dong the projects but its challenging. interviews seems less credible than before. facts seems doubtful. though the vast benefits it provides many people to tap on to make money esp. teenagers nowadays it also creates alot of problems.well. there are 2 sides to every story i guess. thats why i wanna major in NEW MEDIA!! hopefully i get this course next sem *cross my fingers*

so far the beginning of my holidays - i've completed 3 stuffs on my to do list. though i went for gym this morning instead of tanning. i gained back the few kg when i break fast with 3 dounuts !! argh :( thanx partner for the fattening dounuts!

and today i really receive something which i will treasure forever from my partner (: i'm really touched. its a motivation for me to move on no matter what troubles or obstacles that come about in life. i really really like it.

went to east coast for awhile to just sit down and calm my mind after the long day. set my goals right. pursue my dreams again. and i got back my energy (: the shirts coming tmr!!!! so excited. hopefully mummy will allow me to go a short trip after new year to do sales.! *squeals*

darling still training and i miss him bad :( like real bad. i hate NS!!!!!!

2008-09-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

i finally understand why people is so protective over me! so many times my friends and a lot of people who care tell me to be careful when it comes to lending money to anyone. but i always have this weak point call '' xin luan '' so at the end of the day the money is still borrowed out.

and without writing any proof or evidence i just pass the cash to them. yea . i am naive. hai * still learning to be cold heart. i dunno how some people are just so un-grateful of everything - the way their frens help them and the way their life is structured. i learn so much this few months about the human beings. i start to get afraid of them! even the closest friend can become ungrateful for everything u did for them. becareful of the people you help!

its time for a change. i wanna change.

2008-09-21T13:50:00.006+08:00

its been quite some time since i blog! hahas (: been out so many days! haven had the time to sit and finish my homework :( oh dear! hahas. i lost my motivation to sit for 5 hours to complete my school work! i need a study partner! since darling is in NS. no one motivates me to study! hahas.

and i have to survey the market at bugis later (: hopefully nothing gets out of my wallet. can't wait for tmr !!!!!

there is something which has been in my mind ever since a talk with a close friend on friday. trust. how do one define trust in today's modern world.? Are humans really so scary that they will go to every extent to just hurt one person if they are jealous, hurt or sth. i was really surprised at how a simple action could lead to a major desructive consequence.
i choose to look everything just on the surface for the simple reason that i want to live in a perfect world. however its a complicated society we live in and after last night talk on the phone, i really start to believe that trust only exist up till maybe 70%. no one can be trusted fully. even the closest to you will hurt you if they feel that you are nice to take advantage of. but people are not clever enough, they leave behind loopholes to tell people that they are the culprit.

to think back, i did sacrifice a lot of cash to learn the real meaning of friends and family. but i'm still ignorant. i guess its time for me to wake up and face reality. change can be for the better for for the worst. i want to change my perception of people now. i'm tired of being a good girl. maybe just maybe i wanna try being a bad girl and get accepted to the cruelty of society. but i always have this simple thought - that if today you are willing to betray your close friends, what makes you think you won't betray your own family. thanx for the advice. i'll be real cautious of the people around me.

Saturday, 20 september 2008

went out with my dear boy yesterday since its gonna be the last saturday i see him before a long time. i promise a nice post for him (: though the sweet pictures that we took is stuck in the camera cause daddy forgot where he placed the wire. but not to worry. it'll be up when i miss him real bad in this 7 weeks - guard duty, hari raya, his training course, his brunei trip :( that adds up to 7 weeks! but i'm not a good girl. i'll go to his camp to find him on friday night, hopefully he'll sneak out to see me =)

it was just a sweet simple date where at the end of the day it left me smiling sweetly cause its one of the wonderful memories you can ever want. and after being pampered for weeks, he couldn't get the car so we had to travel on public transport. its not so bad la. its definitely much cheaper than the bills of the cashcard and fuel.

contemplated for a movie to watch since its been a long time since i last catch a movie with him. i so wanna catch mama mia ! lets see i haven seen a nice movie with farhan for at least 4 mths =p haha! but due to the horrendous long queue at plaza sing. i'm lazy (: and so we settled for just a walk and some shopping if out pockets got itchy. headed to town. and let me repeat myself at how small my hometown is that i was in town almost everyday this week! argh! *sad*

what i thought was super cute was both of us were so tired cos of fasting, we went to royal onscotts hotel where the lobby was full of sofa in front of the receptionist counter, lie on his shoulder and i fell asleep for an hour (: *grins* and hanis was like " who sleeps on a date ? " and u have ur answer right in front of u. hahas! sorry dear! i was tired. and his shoulder was nice (: a date is not what u do that matter! is who u are with. though i fell asleep. i'm still happy at the end of the day. haha!

and dear, if you happen to be reading this. i love you (: i did a lot of stupid mistakes in the past and i didn't listen to you . but then at the end of the day. i'm still back in your arms. though i might still continue making stupid mistakes, i know you'll be there to protect me. and i know many people will kill me if i were to make any rash decision again. and yea. i wan our dream to come true.!

i was also just casually chatting with a friend that its not the quantity time that you see your boyfriend that makes you treasure him more. but the quality time where 2 people just sit down and do nothing and just being with each other. it takes a lot of sacrifices but at the end of the day you know everything is worth it. hopefully it allows you to make a decision ((:

Friday, 19 september 2008

anyway, went to clarke quey on friday night to complete my geog project and it was really an eye opener for me. geog couldn't be more fun (: globalisation has always been my favourite topic and a project on globalisation is something i couldn't ask for more (: and Singapore River Festival is one of our ideas! haha. its so rock band music. reminds me of all the bay beats and hard rock music farhan used to bring me.! (:

while walking down clarke quey i had this sudden thought of clubbing. never done before. it sounds real scary when my friends relate their experiece to me. but it sounds fun! hahas. well. chang ming!!!! lets club soon (: see if the guys wanna go! miss u guys so much man.

back on my project, we were suppose to interview people and do a report on it. me and hanis. we were like scared. den when we finally picked on 3 males. we realise they were drunk! was an experiece but i was like yucks.! hahas. so many handsome foreigners were there. was trying really hard to pick the good looking ones for the interview. its a superficial world today. u wanna live in this world. u need to have looks. i strongly believe in that (: and if u don't have a qualifying looks. sorry like what donald trump always say - you're fired. life's a game . its either u win or u lose !

Singapore River Festival
i like my top :)
hahas. thai food
haha! the male interviews for the day! AMERICANS!
yay! me and hanis (:

2008-09-17T22:21:00.004+08:00

tired and bloated =p

and when the bell rings at 2pm after a long and tiring lecture of not understanding a single sentence the chinese lecture was rattling about! and that marks the start of my summer holidays! whoo!!!! summer holiday spells freedom! so much to do so little time! hehe =) since i only got a week break so i only have a week to pack my activities! argh!

lets see what i wanna do -

finish up my projects, tutorials, lecture notes, school stuff!
catch up with chang ming they all (:
catch up with jia hao! dumb ass
catch up with my sister.
catch up with my sleeeeep!
catch up with all the nice shows (bull fighting .. GTO ....... )
go earn some cash $$
overseas *still thinking*
gym! swim! lost some kg! hahas.
sun-tanning with Wenfang at Sentosa! (:
shopping with my darling gurl frens! =D

quite a list ! hehe. and so today went to eat breeks with my cute little fren who i think ate abit too much and knock himself against the glass door of suntec *rolling off the floor laughing* the scene was so funny! hahas. i saw the glass door and when i entered the shopping centre. i realise he got 'stuck' haha! i think he ate too much! though i was as bloated. i still saw the transparent door! hohoho!!!!!

so bloated ah!!! :( i think i ate too much. oh dear! tmr to the gym to burn off the fats i gained today. haha! and after gym. i'm gonna study chinese for the first time since i went to school! i feel so proud of myself.!

2008-09-15T23:54:00.003+08:00

me and hanis (:

we got tired of studying so we started cam whoring. went to sch for a short 2 hrs lecture and den i was a free bird roaming ard sch dunno wad to do =p

wanted to go shopping at central library but decided not to get anything since i'm short of cash for the time being. haha (: soon! i'll shop till i drop! haha!!! =)

finally i bought my burger at geylang. gonna munch at 4am later for saur! can't wait. hahas. and 15 days already of fasting mth. 15 more days to raya. this year. fasting mth seems to fast! next week is my recess week = holiday = freedom = tanning at sentosa again! hahas! (:

i need to trim my hair! but i love the colour. seems like highlighted =)

and i still haven completed the essay that is due tmr! oh dear.

2008-09-15T00:51:00.003+08:00

i like my top today (:

hahas. and today was just a lazy sunday where you do nothing and just slack . the brain stopped after yesterday's late night revision and i'm still nto done with my south asian studies essay which is due on tuesday. oh i'm so dead man! hahas.

and this is one of the days where knowledge about life comes knocking on the door unexpectedly. i was shocked at how much i learn over a cup of starbucks from my friend. and i realise life is about sincerity. the more sincere you are towards everything and anything you do. the more successful you become. you can be the best if you want to, but there are always someone out there better than you. remember to be humble thats the advise i was given tonight. money can be found anywhere. there are so much leakage of $ in society, its just that one needs to grab the right opportunity and the right mentor to guide them. but sincerity and humbleness comes directly from the heart.

to all my dear frends who have supported me in everything i do. thanx so much for all the time you guys are there for me. really. and not failing to put a big sweet smile on my face (:

i feel a challenge coming. but i keep wondering what is it. and the feeling is super strong each day. (: just hope i'm ready for life challenge.! till then - life is never a burden just a challenge (:

2008-09-13T18:24:00.002+08:00

the boy and me (:

met up with him today since it was a saturday and he didn't need to go back for some dumb duty that will confine him the whole weekend. leaving me miserably lonely at home =p

Singapore is so freaking small that we didn't know where to even head to at first. luckily he drove so i spent half my time relaxing and keeping the brains empty! (: i tried to control on shopping while he spent his $$ off =p hehe!

Geylang was so packed i didn't get my Ramly burger to break fast :( i'm craving for Ramly burger!!! i want ! *hai**

and now back to my mountainous homework ! :( save me!

2008-09-13T00:31:00.005+08:00

the happy tan gurl today =D

the weather was crazy in the morning. while it was bright and sunny at the east side of Singapore. it was pouring at the west side of Singapore. so the plan of sun-tanning at Sentosa was delayed by 2 hours :( but then again i was bathing in the sun while waiting for the cute gurl to arrive (: but i was patient right darling! hahas

when we reach sentosa it drizzled.! argh! save me man! there was no sun. so eventually we just sat there talked the whole afternoon and after that we decide to dip in the waters.

and the sun was out like FINALLY after 2 hours. and i fell asleep on the sand after applying the tanning lotion. now my face is burnt !! :( i forgot to apply block on the face! and my tan is nt very obvious but slightly there. i wan go again to tan!! hahas. and i wan a new bikini! =p

i love u gurl! thanx for the day. my lovely fang (:

sentosa .!
darling gurl with peacock! hahas
yay! and my tan works! (:

2008-09-10T20:51:00.018+08:00

i love this picture =D

couldn't wake up this morning after last night late night discussion ! (: den today in chi lecture i was like '' what is the teacher talking about '' sianx ah!! hahas.

den my super nice friend had 2 tickets to the Singapore flyer which he invited me . so sweet right! hehe. (: and we talk and talk and take plenty of pictures and went shopping and talk some more! hahas. i really enjoyed myself. been so long since i smiled my best! chang ming! ur best friend is back! (: hahas. thanx so much for the lovable day (:

trust me. the Singapore flyer is really cool if u cna go during sun set! the scenery is splendid ! hahas. of cos better if its free ! hehe..

i ride this !!! =)
botanical gardens ?
pretty pretty river
'' boarding ''
nice view!
toy car + high rise flat
east side of Singapore
raffles place and city
the uglier side of the country at work. make over changes
the internal soccer field! chang ming wan ask the guys play here or nt ?? haha!!
i love the view and the structure
thats the upcoming theme park at RI
hahas. me and the sea and the ''coconut'' trees!
different angles. different perspective. different views
the view is soooOo beautiful =D

I'm happy today (= and i got the dear boy a surprise . hopefully he will like it !

2008-09-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

its a freaking 1.32 am in the morning. and i miss this cute boy of mine =D pardon me (: can't sleep without putting his picture up . hehe!

i have school tmr :( long day some more! haiii*

2008-09-08T19:33:00.003+08:00

oh my! i dreaded this morning so much!! i wanted to continue sleeping but had tutorials this morning. and its already a freaking week 5! skipped 1 tutorial and 3 lectures in total for chi studies. didn't dare skip some more. the best thing was that today there was a chi test and i stared blankly at the paper. though honestly speaking it was very easy and a full marks paper. i handed an empty paper (: the most powerful thing in school is what i acknowledge as bravery =p how am i suppose to pass a chi history essay of 4000 words? *help*

hahas! oh well, the rest of the day went on as normal and for the first time in so long. i studied!! =D i'm so proud of myself! real proud. finish 2 articles of south Asian and 2 lecture notes and soon going to start on my chi readings. oh god! save me!!!!

i look forward to the week ending though it just started (: going for a ride on the Singapore flyer hopefully on weds. and sun tanning with the lovely wenfang on friday hopefully it doesn't rain! and sat will be a wonderful day again! (: *smiles*

to mention that i'm gonna keep fit plus my current figure, i'm gym-ing and swimming every week (: hehe!!! if anyone has any better ways of de-stressing. please date me out! i hate the books! :(

2008-09-06T18:49:00.002+08:00

the sweet boy came over this morning, initially wanted to bring me to the doctor. but we ended up just spending time talking (: been long time since i just spend time with him.

" are you happy? "
" yes i am" *grinning*

sometimes the happiest things are just the simplest things in life. and chang ming surprised me in the afternoon by dropping by since he was around the corner. feels back like last time. with my friends around me protecting me again (: and jia cai sweetly paid a visit too. its been like 5 mths since i saw him. and his jokes left my left lungs aching =p but i love them (: i miss everyone! oh dear. all on attachments and soon all will be going to ns. time flies.!

will be looking forward to working with u blur king! haha. jia cai has grown up =x

while i spent the whole day watching movie and sleeping. need to get back to studying! exams in a mth plus. i wanna ace! (:

2008-09-05T22:51:00.003+08:00

i've beginning to suspect that there is internal swelling going on within me. :( the pain doesn't go away and it aches at every position i am in. its freaking irritating. i can't do anything with my left arm now. and tmr he's bringing me to the doctor =)

oh well, i've stop blaming everything about getting sick but can't stop complaining about the pain. and i finally finish the book by Richard Branson - screw it! just do it. and i really gotta blog about this guy man.

its been seldom that i really admire someone for the simple reason that we are all humans and we can do every single thing we want. but i really admire this guy next to henry ford - he really does what he wants and he does it no matter how much obstacles he faces. how many of us living today have this attitude? its the simplest thing that divide the strong from the weak and the good from the bad.

though it was just his books, it felt like i've met him before somewhere, somehow. to think about it if we don't face obstacles and problems in life, life is all that boring. its the things we face that keeps each of us stronger everyday. he doesn't care what people thinks bout him, he doesn't give a shit if you look down on him, he knows he can do it. thats the vital lesson we should pick up.

being a 15 year old boy having big dreams started him on the fruitful journey of his lifetime experience. with the dream of having his own magazine up till today owning planes, trains, islands, music stores. Richard Branson made a name for himself being Virgin's co founder. everyone doubted a 15 year old boy, but it didn't mattered to him at all. he just went with the flow.

what i thought was most attractive about him is his humble-ness. earning quite a great deal of moeny and owning a billion dollar business. not many people in the world today can submit to humble-ness. even some leaders fails to do so at points of time.

there are a lot of learning points that i took from him and the only thing that i can do now is put myself to a test of the skills i learnt.

my dad once told me" girl, i think you're ambitious " hahas. i'm proud of the comment though. maybe that will be the comment that spark the potential for me to excel to even greater heights in life. =D

2008-09-05T02:49:00.002+08:00

feels like i've been away from society. first time staying at home for a solid 24 hours! hahas. been reading and movie-marathorning and sleeping.! i've never had so much sleep in my life before.

while the heart still hurts, i got no choice but to rest. once i'm well, i so wanna go for the sun! and yes chang ming u owe me a nugget mac meal! (: but happy cos i lost a great deal of weight, preparing me for new year ((: can't wait!

and finally after long hesitation of a new phone. i got what i want (: C905 - cyber shot with 8.1 mp! oh my!! and the icy silver is so sleek! hahas. i'm so gonna get it once its launched! for the time being, back to resting (:

2008-09-03T20:19:00.001+08:00

and my heart still hurt damn bad. wonder if i'll die soon =p

hahas. the weather suck. but i had a lovely afternoon. thanks (:

back to work ..........................

2008-09-02T16:58:00.010+08:00

and i'm home! haha. i feel reborn! ready for the next challenges in life that i'm gonna face. couldn't the whole of last night. got so engrossed in reading the book by richard branson - screw it! just do it! oh my. if i was to live in another era, he would have been both a good business partner and a super fun loving adventurous friend. i'm so in love with his daring guts! i wanna be like him! who cares man! just do it. people only get to live once. there is only 1 life =D 1 chance, 1 opportunity. either you make it or you break it.

had a heart to heart talk with my mummy and i realise families are really important. because that is the eventual support everyone will turn to! no matter if you make it or not. they are there cause god gave them to you. they are not by choice but by destiny (:

i feel that i've grown up! (: oh well, i do still believe in my motto - never grow up! *contradicting* haha! like i said, its our live. how do you want to live it? ((: many people care about me! and there are utmost importance in my life now. its them that i want to splurge on. i want to make them proud. and somehow i know i can do it! (:

missed school for 2 days and MC for 7 days! hahas. yes hanis.! i miss u too gurl! i know lectures without me suck! (: bear with it oki! hehe. while i know i'm not in school, i've been a good girl trying to complete my homework too!

while in the hospital, i caught a romace show - sky of love thanx to the act cute jiahao! hahas. and love is still a pit fall for me but well, who can resists love? it just come. i cried during the show ''-________-

this hurts so bad!
farhan (:
hahas. siaohwee and changming trying really hard to hide their face! (: the group photo is with my daddy! will upload it asap! loves!

and changming told me that my smile was sweeter when i was back in school. i have an answer for you my dear friend. i'm off troubles now (: so my smile will come back. and i'm touched that you remember that. its been 3 years since we graduated. this is what i call friends for life! thanx is a word that can never be bought (:
act cute jiahao (:
loves by bro and fang (:
by my neighbour (:
yours truly (:

Believe it can be done
Have goals
Live life to the fullest
Never give up
Prepare well
Have faith in yourself
Try and try again
Help each other ......................... Richard Branson

2008-09-01T15:16:00.001+08:00

life's been taking quite a weird and surprising turn for me these days. but somehow or other i've beginning enjoying them (:

well, after the IT fair on friday when i got home, i had severe high fever and mummy gave me some panadol and i turned in for the night. and that night i got admitted to the hospital! pretty unexpected for me! :( first time in an ambulance the feeling was scary. really. never felt that and could i say it was a close shave from death? i dunno. i thought a lot. suddenly i feel like yea. everything was going to end. in the emergency room all types of equipments i saw which made the whole feeling even worst. haha.

to think abt it, its a once in a life time experience and i guess all the CT scan and injections everywhere, i wouldnt get to feel it again :)

special thanks to all my lovable friends that paid me a visit

thanx for the lovely red rose from my dear bro and fang. was really happy to see them though at that point of time i was restricted in my movements ..

my mummy's friend came and my uncle and aunties came, bringing me flowers and cute bear bear (: i feel so loved =x

my lovely secondary school friends - juan, chang ming, siaohwee, nana . my smile came back when they visited. they brought me some happy feeling i can't describe (: thanx to mingyi who send his lovliest regards cos he was too lazy to come out ! lols . guys, everyone commented that the flowers is really nice so i'm gonna bring it home!! pink roses and white carnations ((:

my sisters and brother - ever so lovely to have accompanied me thru the night when i was in pain!!

jiahao - who was super shocked that i got admitted and thought i pulled a prank on him. dumbass!! hee. thanx for the ipod video and movie that accompanied me last night. and my fingers back to normal idoit (: thanks and lots of love from your sick buddy here!

mr weijian for the magazine to keep me updated about office (: appreciate it.

and farhan !! ((: the lovely boy who came on friday after booking out in his smelly uniform =p and saturday surprising me with a lovely handbag from charles and keith to cheer me up! i really loved it!

many dropped me take care messages !(: thanx to everone really.
this time, i've learnt a valuable lesson. sickness doesn't come when you are old. it just come as they like. i wanna live happily with people i treasure(: its a great lesson learnt. i no longer really bother of how people think, its just that we should do sth we know its right.

i learnt a precious word - treasure. and yes, from today onwards, live life to the fullest (:

will upload all pictures once i reach home and get my hands on the hp cable!

2008-08-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

i'm still living in the dream world of mine!
i like the picture (:

today was a wonderfully great day =D and i still haven sat down to study. went to bugis to do some survey while rewarding myself with 2 tee-shirts (: i was contemplating since i'm seriously broke. oh well, the money didnt go to food. hai* i've been starving for a week and the money went to shopping. no girls can resists shopping and i believe in that so much!

the feeling of being ultimately poor makes me even wanna press on to earn more cash! (: met with jiahao which made me break my fast as he tempted me with $20 coffee bean voucher! oh dear! he is so smart! and i filled the empty tummy with ice belgian chocolate latte. and thats the only thing i had today :( and now i'm having a fever :( i'm still unsure of the cause - if it is lack of food or because of the swelling thats appearing on my body for no reasons. i'm scared and i wanna get well! i hate the doctors cos i think they always lie about your conditions!! oh well.

accompanied my parents to the IT fair at suntec while they spent their money on a flat screen tv, camera and a desktop for my youngest brother. i was shocked at the way they spent the cash. hahas. new spending methods thanx to me (: so excited about the new design daddy has installed for the living room! and for the first time i had 3 solid hours with my parents uninterrupted. i was super grateful to god for it and i've never seen my parents so happy together in a long time (: and we were chatting about almost everything under the sun. and i realise the only thing i really wanted was a perfect family. thats all !

on the way home, a london call came and i was super happy chatting with my long distant sister! and i met janet, ivy and mama G! i miss UAN (:

i just wanna get well for now.

2008-08-27T21:13:00.003+08:00

today was just another day where you unexpectedly turns lucky! where god decide to reward you with many wonderful things! hehe! (:

school was fun =) english tutorial was unexpected. the teacher teaching english is a japanese! and she spoke like more than 5 languages including jap, bahasa indo, malay, english, tagalor, botuk ( dunno how to spell ) i was surprised! i wanna be like her! and so because of her! i shall take up either french or jap nxt sem (: *grins*

and my first ever chinese lecture after skipping 2 weeks of lecture came as quite a shocked! i was sitting beside a friend of mine, super happy that i at least know 1 person in the lecture, trying my very best to understand song, ming and yuan dynasty with still many question marks when i left the lecture theatre! :( i wonder how am i gonna ace this subject when i have a test in the upcoming 2 weeks! *dear me*

oh well, however after school life seems more interesting where i travelled from clementi to jurong and then to kallang and further on to leisure park and ended up celebrating Felicia's birthday in the office (: life's exciting! thanx to the mrt consession i travelled cheap!

on the way home, i was deep in my thoughts on generating income for more shopping to come where suddenly someone flip the table at the nearby hawker and a girl started screaming and a commotion went on. many busy Singaporeans walked over. i wanted to participate but then i thought '' nahx '' and i went back to my thoughts. i've become oblivious to my surroundings i realise. how weird becoming numb of everything.

i wanna get well first!!! den make lots of money and satisfy my shopping cravings! hopefully hanis can go to Bangkok at the end of the year and shop till we drop dead! =) life's full of surprise!

and to dear felicia : Happy 19th birthday! loves (: may all your dreams come true! Nice knowing such a pretty gurl like you! *hugs*

2008-08-26T11:01:00.001+08:00

NO MORE VIETNAM :( haii* . ok. trying yunan now (: hahas. never give up! thats the motto right! hehe (: jiayou!

''Hi Reena,

Thank you so much for your interest in this project and also taking time off to come to the freezing cold interview session. We are also very sorry for the rush in time/datelines as we had certain dateline restrictions on our side.

Due to this year's overwhelming response and after several immense hair-pulling cum nail-biting discussion sessions, we regret to inform you that we could not place you in this year's DesDanang team.''

2008-08-26T00:46:00.003+08:00

tonight is one of those random nights where fate comes unexpectedly knocking on the door asking you to seize the opportunity given . new knowledge. new experience. i know i can (:

drove down to sentosa! so random (: thats life. every turn in life is always a surprising and fun loving one. i begin to accept everything that is in plan for me. all challenges, all obstacles, all decisions.

just received a pps from one lovely gurl friend of mine. and it fits to what i am going thru right now - everyone has 2 choices to make. they can choose to be sad or they can choose to be happy. they can choose to be defeated or they can choose to succeed. they can choose to live or they can choose to die. and i realise everything changes with the choice i make.

even the mistakes are my choices and the way i react is also my choices. today i choose to be happy! and my whole emotions liven up! (:

drove down! reminds me of the custom when crossing borders
sentosa cove! the houses there so pretty!
went to one of the club. forgot the name. nice concept they have!
and i love my drink - Caribbean freeze (coconut, milk, tropical fruits) yum!
the beach at night. super beautiful! =D

when opportunity comes knocking on the door. never say no. cos when one rejects it. it might never come again.! i finally realise what i really want ! =D

something hilarious happen in sch today. i was suppose to have my chi first tutorial today. and so i was late for 5 mins. however, i couldn't find the classroom. I'm hopeless in navigating around school without hanis! and so after 40 mins of non fruitful search. i gave up. and so i skipped the tutorial. hit my head someone.! oh my =p

still hoping to go vietnam! *cross my fingers*

2008-08-24T13:52:00.002+08:00

at the end of the day, it still voice down to how you smile to brightens your day.

was walking along dhoby ghaut yesterday . i totally forgot about the fireworks held in marina ! was too engrossed in other thoughts! den suddenly while walking on the road. u just heard '' bom bom bom! '' and i saw pretty pretty fire works which of cos brighten up the night for me as well as the surrounding skies.!

and i realise life is just like fireworks. hahas. it goes off at one go and everything will disappear after awhile. just hope my life's like that (:

i wanted to get the red and green lights but i was slow ''-__________-

fireworks!!!

*crossing my fingers i wan go vietnam* =D

2008-08-23T02:15:00.003+08:00

yay ! the dreamy gurl in her world (:

went for a lovely dinner after work just now at the stadium waterfront and was chatting the topic on life and i realize that maybe life is just a gamble. there are time when you just need to take a step back and see how to improve on the current situation so that you can go higher and further. and both of us were just talking about dreams and our goals and the time flew to close to midnight. sometimes i miss those regular talks with friends, just chilling by the water side and thinking how far can we challenge ourselves in life.

he's a successful business person and here i am just finding a focus in life. 2 people in the different parts of time line in life. I've always admired his ability and determination to complete something he really set off doing. thinking back, I'm still stuck at the education system, trying my very best to at least graduate with beautiful results on that graduation certificate.

i didn't manage to go to jam and hop 2008 as hanis couldn't go :( oh well, there is always next time. but i did manage to catch up with my girlfriend today which was a super happy thing for me(: and besides that i'm starting to once again appreciate the things around me. I'm just a happy go lucky girl and crossing my fingers and praying hard that luck is always on my side (:

a fall is just a test of your persistence and determination to continue the path that you choose and the sense of satisfaction will only come once you succeed ! that is something i've been trying to convince myself to do. yet i still feel the hurt of falling :(

hopefully there's a car available tmr night to ferry me to dinner! *looking forward*

2008-08-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

this few days i learn a valuable lesson in life! oh well. i just hit my head real hard on the wall before waking up. and now i'm awake from all the reality facts that i've been classifying as fantasy.

i feel a different kind of energy in me. those kind that i don't really care now. i just want to complete what i wanted initially. achieve my goals and keep my parents happy. (:

school's been great! i wish i'm selected for the Vietnam trip! *cross my fingers* 150 applicants and only 20 will be chosen! though i never failed any interview before, i'm definitely worried this time! everyone seem that they want to go badly! and i want too!! Cambodia trip in 2003 left many wonderful memories (: and i want to achieve another one this year!!

still contemplating what cca to join! went for the free dance blast class. and now contemplating between dance and water sports!!! (: both sounds pretty fun.! whats school without holistic campus life ! =D plus plus! i hope hanis gets to go tmr night for jam and hop 2008 party all night ! am so looking forward to partying my night off!

2008-08-14T00:53:00.003+08:00

yay.! best bud (:
nice night view from the top floor of some flats (:

and today was a long day for me. i'm glad everything went on fine(: at least there is still a reason to smile for everything i do.!

2008-08-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

burger king in school .. *the over excited girl*

school becoming better. though the body is mainly drained and tired. but mentally i love school (: English lecture was so cool! well, the teacher was cool but i guess the subject can get really dry after awhile. maybe those who graduate as linguists can now become a english teacher in school and students usually hate English cos of the extremely dry content.

and after English was geog! geog was really fun! (: i was considering to major in geog but i really wanna do comms and new media :( so i'll decide next semester. hee! i love geog due to the fantastic variety of fieldtrip and the memoirs of london happenings in JC1 =p and i wanna go so many countries and i wanna learn about social and cultural globalization and natural hazards. geog is forever so happening! i miss mrs tay =D

after school, me and hanis were roaming round school looking for the book shop when we realise all the happening stuffs were at the central library. finally i saw some cute and decent looking guys after a day of hopeless search . hee! and shopping in school resembles shopping in bugis so i got a dress. nice turquoise colour dress (: and the happy girl is satisfied while hanis was grumbling that she wanted to eat burger king! its cool having the whole new concept of a campus life where we do almost anything and everything we want (:

i'm so nervous abt tmr's chinese studies lecture :( everything looks ultra tough. i'm worried and aloneeeeeeeeee :( to think abt it, my long weekend break is round the corner with thurs and fri off! hehe
the always so happening school compound (:

and i've decided to go for dance ! (:

2008-08-11T17:12:00.002+08:00

my lovely friend and me (:

today first day of school. and i'm already so drained. like totally. met nat on the corridoor! hahas. and we were screaming. '' bibi!!!'' ''nat!!!!'' hahas. as usual. 2 crazy gurls . oh well. i miss her(:

south asia is super interesting. but hanis was already dozing next to me. going to sch without sch uniform starts to give me a headache as i open the cupboard of mine and paused for a good 30 mins before deciding what to wear.

i so wanna have a hostel at price george!! its so pretty. found this area when me and hanis got lost in school (:

23 august - heading to zouk. hahas. excited ah. school's fun (:

still trying to keep low profile .................................

2008-08-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

was just clearing my cupboard which i always do it when i cannot find the clothes i wanna wear. and i realise it hasnt stop expanding since dunno when. but at least its not expanding exponentially =p though i very much still wanna buy more. Who will ever have enough of shopping? hahas. its still my fav thing to do (: makes me really happy!

damn chio!!!!!
my dream cupboard (:

if a little larger i aso dun mind. =p

2008-08-07T10:44:00.002+08:00

i've been staring at the comp for almost 30 mins and i have still no inspiration of what subjects to take. I was unsuccessful in the first 2 rounds of bidding for the subjects i want to study. oh dear which made it harder cos the competition level is made much more difficult.

sometimes i wonder, why am i even still studying? its difficult to provide with a definite answer. but since i made it so just take it? is that how life was pre arrange for us? i'm not sure. just tired of the whole bidding thingy. and i'm clueless abt some subjects, in total detest for some and those i want are the popular ones. and thats why its full. haha!

back to my bidding...........

2008-08-07T01:41:00.003+08:00

this is gonna be one damn post. so i apologize for the language use first!

f*** all the people who always exaggerate when they talk. i don't understand if everyone has their own butt, it equates to everyone has their own actions and their own mindset. which differentiate the good people from the evil ones.

i only understand that jealousy is present in the universe. but i never understood jealousy can kill till today when i start dying myself. sometimes i really don't understand why people only talk about what they see and they relate to only what they feel is right. have they thought about that if they stupidly interpret wrongly den they will be harming a lot of people ? i am curious at how the human brain works. if everyone is born equal, why are there idiots and geniuses ?

once someone told me, be a crook. its easier to live in the society today. cos being someone good is always difficult. i choose not to believe cos i always believe in good. but my mindset is changing. thanx to the bastards who did this. i don't wish to harm anyone. but i hate it when people start taking things for granted and start talking rubbish. esp. if those things are not something i did.

i finally understand why the govt take freedom of speech away from the people. cos the people don't say what they think. they damn bloody exaggerate what they see.! first time i feel that i wanna kill someone. Singaporeans love to take advantage. i love taking advantages during shopping sales. but i realise in the world today, people loves taking advantage when they are able to gain favoritism. in my personal dictionary '' teacher's pet'' look ard u. there are this kind of ppl everwhere.! sometimes i feel like screaming - be a dog man. teacher's dog !! and i totally despise them!! DESPISE.

i guess there will be plenty of bitches, bastards, idoits, f***ers around, we just need to be extra wary, cautious, careful of them. and only when we know who they are we can eliminate them from our lives to lead a happier and more productive lifestyle. (:

this post is my own personal opinions. if anyone has anything to add on, feel free. but if anyone has anything to comment, den i think just keep it. (: i'm sticking to this stand till i clear the idoits name from my mind.

to all my frens. i love u guys so much (:

2008-08-06T00:54:00.008+08:00

smile!!

hahas. went for a swim today (: feels like home. love the waters. well. didnt manage to gym yesterday cos there were too many ppl and i dont like many ppl in a room exercising. feels weird. and so shall gym either tmr or thursday and swim on friday (:

living a healthy lifestyle! hahas. my craziness is back. i wanna lose weight!!!!!!!!

Hongkong pictures ! (:

plane view! (:
sun rise (:
buildings in hk are much higher than s'pore!
wanna return home also need to queue :(
this was wad the joke was all abt!! economy + !
yay! happily returned (:

2008-08-04T11:38:00.003+08:00

i miss my camera so much! its still with my mummy! and i haven upload photos since ages . at least that is what i feel! (:

nothing much happen this few days! just lots of catching up with my family and friends! hehe. will try to get the photos online tonight >.<

......... off to the gym to burn fats! .........

2008-08-01T01:33:00.004+08:00

went to hongkong for a day trip! the feeling of being in Singapore in the morning. hongkong in the afternoon and back in Singapore at night. the feeling is super cool (: and sat the economy plus! hahas. it was the first time i knew there is a section known as economy plus. i cracked a joke with my friend. and the conversation went something like this :

me: so there is something call economy plus. maybe there is also a business plus.
my friend: maybe there is also a first class plus seat
me: really? i wanna try
my friend: sit beside the pilot lors.

oh dear.. ''-______________________________- but i couldn't stop laughing la. overall, it was cool. had pictures taken as usual. will upload them soon once i get it on the comp(:

went back to school for bidding today! thanx to faruq and his friends. it went on pretty well! (: thanx for the ramly burger too! i think when school really starts, its gonna be one fun semester, having hanis with me for almost every class is super cooL! (: though we might spend half the time trying to have fun . oh well, school's suppose to be that way anyway! trying to find the nicest food.. the cutest guy's dorm.. the most relaxing place to slack when we skip lectures.. i love my school(:

hanis: we shall try to keep low profile this time.
me: u shure we will be able to maintain that?
hanis: we'll try
me: i doubt we can.

hahas. thats how much fun it can be when you put 2 best friends together! and i love the skinny and scrawny sis of mine !

valuable lesson learnt today:
can't really rely on anyone except yourself. you will never know when the person will turn behind your back and stop helping you. it hurts but i realise crying over it makes one feel real weak! and i just hate the feeling. its not about the situation you are in that makes one real depressed but the people who are hurting you in the situation esp. if they are those u care.

i'm lost :(

2008-07-28T01:01:00.003+08:00

and i think i put on a little bit of weight (:

went to marina square in the morning had breeks for brunch (: and i realise old habits are hard to change. no matter where i go be it swensens, fish and co, breeks or fig and olive i'll only settle myself with one dish - fish and chips. i just cannot eat anything else except that ! hahas. oh well, its just me (:

nth much happen today but looking forward to shopping after school tmr with hanis! i so wanna get a pair of jeans and skirt! *grins*

signing off now to my beauty sleep!!

2008-07-27T00:10:00.009+08:00

yay! the happy and satisfied school gurl! (:

its been damn long since i last went to the beach. and today headed down to sentosa (: sooo happy! haha! the sun was marvelous and the sand was tremendous. hahas. gosh. i sound like a storybook writer! (: well. finally the bikini nat, chery and monica got for me for my 17th birthday came to good use! and i love them! thanx gurls! hehe..

and i discover that Singaporeans are just good copy cats! after the 9o'clock show - beach ball babes is being broadcast, the whole siloso beach was filled with volleyball players. balls can be seen flying everywhere. everyone seem to be in the volley ball fever. oh dear. i even saw this 2 super pretty small girls aged between 3-5 playing volleyball! haha. should have snap a picture of the long beach filled with volleyball players. damn!

nevertheless i really enjoyed myself today. its been awhile since i visited any beach. on the way back, dropped by vivo and there is a crazy sale going on where me and my frens went crazy, simply crazy! and i fell in love with a top shop skirt! when i look at the price, i nearly black out.! the skirt cost a freaking $83!!!! any kind soul that wanna get it for me! (: i will definitely love you! oh dear! it doesnt sound too good.!

school starting in a week! (: hahas.

thanx guys for spending the day with me! really appreciate and love u guys! (: hehe . can't wait for school! (:

and i got a nice black backpack for school! thanx boy! (: *happy*

2008-07-25T01:12:00.004+08:00

happy birthday darling sister and my dearest mummy! (:

haha! he looks so much like my sister's evil twin! (: but really cute

hahas! and today my sister celebrated her 14th birthday while mummy celebrated her 44th birthday on the same night!

its been so long since i had a wonderful family dinner together and i really appreaciate tonight. while mummy was busy preparing the delicious meal. daddy had fun making my sister look real dumb. here is goes :

daddy: how do u put the giraffe in the fridge?
my sis: cut the giraffe

i was like what!! haha! and i laughed my head off! hahas. i have such lovely family members! and i love them so much! and now i feel super bloated after eating everything my parents bought! i think i myself ate 5 sticks of satay and much more that i dun wanna say =p hehe..

cute bugs bunny and beheaded tweety cake!

happy birthday my dear dear sis! (:

the boy came over today and commented that my room was ultimately messy so i took the initiative to clear my area and now my hand itch :( i hate spring cleaning!! i need a maid!! oh gosh.

and i accompanied his lovely sister the whole evening and went shopping! hahas. when u put 2 shopping queens together . the end result is just a large hole in the pocket! but i'm satisfied and still happy at the end of the day! (:

2008-07-24T02:43:00.002+08:00

and she continues to dream in her world (: its like 3 am in the morning yet i'm sitting in front of my comp listening to all the love song i just received . life is so unpredictable. one day u can be a real failure and the next someone successful. its just that one luck everyone needs.

when is mine coming. *dreaming*

anyway, i have cheap and original branded shirts (CK, Tom Tailor, Zara Men etc ... ) anyone interested please contact me (: not gonna put the shirts online.

2008-07-23T15:58:00.003+08:00

life's just full of setbacks. thats what i think but what is more important during this process is how our attitude bring us through the setbacks. To think back at 19, i'm just facing a lot of things i should not at this age. oh well, i guess god wants me to mature earlier so that i can face tougher challenges in life.

someone once told me "the test that god gives us are usually only a little harder than our ability. this is to ensure that we maximize our potential" the statement couldn't be more through these days.

caught the movie "red cliff" and was super impressed with zhu ge liang at his calmness to think of a perfect solution for any difficult situation he is facing. but i always appreciate the number of friends i have that support me in times of this (: and thanks.

but on top of all hardship no one can resists shopping!! (: and so i'll be on my way to another shopping spree soon! before school starts! (:

2008-07-21T13:08:00.003+08:00

and after 2 months! i'm back!! (:

thanks yaqi for inspiring me! after so long, finally i saw my classmate! haha and she brighten up my day! so i shall continue blogging!

school's starting real soon and i'm not even sure if its good news or otherwise. Went over to NUS the previous day with my lovely girlfren for an english test. Ever since school's out 9 months ago, i barely wrote any essays and i just hope that the teachers will be lenient enough to pass me!

It feels like another chapter of my life is beginning. And i'm looking forward to every happenings that will occur! (:

2008-05-26T01:37:00.022+08:00

besides that, updates on my indo trip (:

DAY 1
still in the plane (: haha. and i got the window seat ! hahas. mummy so nice allowed me the window seat.the horizon looks super pretty from the plane (:
the hotel i stayed (: i love the room so much!!
fadli (:
yay! i love the fountain behind me. pretty pretty shape.
nice hotel with nice lighting !
this shopping centre has pretty shoes!!! hahas. i wan buy many many stuffs. hahas. and i was enjoying myself wearing 3 different sets of clothes a day! hahas. so damn fun!

DAY 2
look at the shopping centre, its like a freaking messy place but selling freaking cheap stuffs (: hahas. i got many many stuffs. so far - 2 dress, 1 pants, under garments, 1 shirt, 1 bracelet and many many. thanx to my mummy who sponsored my shopping (:
cam-whoring again (:
i love the big big house! someone buy me !!
i wan this!!!! hahas (:
indo aso got coffee bean
and i really like the pure vanilla mummy drank!
i love my shirt - princess`
fashion parade!!! my fav (:
hahas. acting spastic.
hahas. posing again.
and again . At night we went to the beach and everyone went nuts. hahas! its been so long since i had so much fuN!!!!!

DAY 3 - going home (:
leaving back to Singapore. thanx fadli.
yay! and i bought a new cap.

once again, thanx to my lovely mummy who sponsored this trip for me. my mummy means everything to me (: and i love her so very much.

me and mummy (: i love her so much!!

2008-05-16T13:54:00.002+08:00

been reflecting a lot for the past few hours before my upcoming fight to jakarta this evening(: hahas. i'm going jakarta with mummy for 4 days. i guess its a time where i get to think of what i really want and where are my goals are in life now.

a few months ago, i went to 'work' where in actual fact i found a family. and i realise the moment where i decided that i will strive my best, I know there was no way out. i made many best friends and i guess these are the people which kept me going - my motivating factor. I disappointed my boss like how i disappointed my daddy a few months ago when i told him i wanted to give up A levels. but i know that i have to do something to prove that i am worth their expectations.

i still remember when i gotten my A level results and my daddy was there, he said '' i'm really proud of u girl'' and after 10 years of education, going thru PSLE and O levels, he finally said it when i completed my A's. He never give up on me, though the constant black face and misunderstanding on my part. At the end of the day, i knew he was always there.

and the feeling is the same with my boss, i made a huge blunder, but i'm gonna prove that i'll work hard for what i want. Everyone makes mistakes, its just how we recover from them. and i know i'm going to recover cos i have less than a month to achieve what i want - HK trip in June. i know i can do it, i must do it. cos there are people who constantly are supporting me, wanting me to acheive something and i dont want to disappoint them.

its just a harsh reality that we are living in that I have to start accepting factors that are happening around me.

nur, wawa, zameer - haven really spend a lot of time with u guys lately. hmmm, will buy u guys stuffs from jakarta and we'll have dinner when i get my first big paycheck soon (:

and last of all luck for ur driving test (:

2008-05-05T01:24:00.002+08:00

doesn't seem to have sufficient time to blog these days. while enjoying every detail of my life, some parts of it seems to be more tilted towards the negative side. anyway, i got admitted into the course i want in NUS (: congrats to me! hee!

just some recent updates, went to SMU for biz interview on friday. it was a once in a lifetime experience that i gained. though i chose 2 very different courses in both uni (as i didnt know which i really wanted) it opened my eyes to the other perception of education. What makes a school so special i always ask myself? i guess its the system implemented. the way lectures are being taught. the way each school groomed their students. But no matter how good the school system can be, why one choose to go to this school rather than the other? haha! until now i have yet the answer for that. love for the subject or friends? i dunno. these thoughts constantly appear when i realise it is time for me to decide on where i should head in 4 months time. oh well, time will fly, it always do.

since the day i finish my last paper of my A's to result day and till date my uni admission, such a short 6 mths, it feels that i've gone thru 2 years ahead of my life. i've learnt so much from so many different people, life skills that the education system forgot, manners and respect that the classroom environment couldn't provide. and i really enjoyed the times. i just wanna say a big thank you to all my friends. (:

lastly, nur! u must get well (: i love u. and i owe u many many shopping spree periods. i owe u your long long dinner which never came. i owe u hugs and kisses. love u sis! get well soon! i'll teach u any subjects u need for o's!

2008-04-27T01:38:00.002+08:00

life has been full of ups and down lately. and lots of vital decisions to be made. its more important to know if these decisions are right in the long run. honestly, i dun really know what i am doing these days. i miss life when it was perfect for me. i feel mentally tired and physically drained. but i'll persevere on till i get what i aim for (: jiayou!

weikoon (:

whahas. super long never see this guy and i finally met him at chua chu kang!! (: jiayou for A's !

2008-04-16T12:17:00.004+08:00

yesterday while on the way to work, took the train ride with my lovely 2 sisters who was going for their maths tuition (: so fun!! been so long since i last talked to them and played! hahas. while the second sister and me were having fun cam whoring and acting like 2 dumb bimbos! the third sister isolated herself and studied for her chinese test! lolx. reminds me of my schooling days. (oh dear, i sound so old) haha!!

anyway, i THINK i have lovely sisters who have weird characters but i still love them the same (:

me and nur (:
me and fira (:
my siblings!!!

2008-04-15T02:54:00.002+08:00

i'm starving at like a freaking 3 am in the morning. oh well. (: anyway, today is like a go back to school day for so many students. honestly, i miss school (: i miss going to school early in the morning with kakwai and boxiong, making a lot of noise in the train, squeezing the bus so that we won't be recorded for late coming. i miss going to school for lectures so that can catch up with friends. I miss going to the house comm room with all my mates. i just miss so many things.!

oh well, learning journey doesn't stop, the places just keep changing. honestly, it feels like i finished my A's yesterday and its actually 4 mths dwn the road to uni. time flies. anyway, taught a primary one boy today, i totally forgot the feeling of being young and curious. asking so many question that i myself as a tuition has a difficulty answering. but it was a fun hour. (:

well, there are negative side of life too - even after so much that happens, some still believe that i still am the small kid they know. Sometimes i just do things to prove people wrong and its sickeningly seriously tiring. why can't you just believe that i can do it? like how i did for my A's. hai. sad life i'm leading during parts of the days. but i know i'll prove him wrong AGAIN like i always do. cos i know (:

2008-04-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

feeling so down lately. and its not a usual down. its quite an extreme down :( i want to cry my heart out. i want to leave the world. i want to run away.

Responsibilities is such a yucky word. who the hell invented it must have a lot of time and patience and maybe even tears to sustain the meaning of the word. It hurts to see those dearest to you in pain cause u'll feel the pain. Sometimes i wish i have a powerful eraser to rub everything off. Its so tough to smile these days. I'm lost. VERY LOST. :(

anyway, besides a little pain in my life. went to catch definitely, maybe today(: nice show. worth watching. super nice. the movie was really nice but the companion was nicer(: thanx for brightening up my day !

2008-04-08T01:08:00.006+08:00

its been so long since i last blogged. busy with life. life been super down for me lately. sometimes i ever wonder why am i still smiling at the end of the day when the inner me is bleeding out. the boyfriend is leaving for NS so sooon that i feel a sudden lost of support. the emotional rush cant be described. :( just feeling very very very down lately. hope things will get better for me soon. if nt the preparation of a coffin sounds like a good journey for me (:

ANYWAY .............................

after a night of fun, it was cam whoring with some very close friends. of cos i have more than 2 friends. just that haven take finish (: soon soon .......... hehe

peifang (:
syafiq (:

today went to support qiuting (F2) cos she is one of the UAN artiste. oh my! she is super elegant.! and everyone was like complementing her lovely never ending legs(: it was quite an experience gain where you get to see all the behind the scene happening.! Media show biz is just so complex and challenging (: which makes everything more fun than ever (:

last week was the hunk challenge which i missed :( looking at all the handsome hunks ''cat walking'' on stage revealing their abs! *faints* this week sexy babes is much hotter! so elegant, so pretty! so talented. well, in my opinions though there are try hard wanna be! and they didnt make it real big in the challenge. i thought no matter what the theme was - people should just relax and be themselves, i'm sure they can pull through even better than trying real hard to be someone. oh well, society always portray beauty so important that it is undeniable that many takes looks heavily these days.

channel U tv station. super duper cool (:
sexy babes(: really sexy!

hahas. Hosting class with mama G and the rest of my friends is becoming more fun than ever(: after all the tactics learning. it was costume play. hahas! i'm like super bad at it cos i usually wear anything that i think will make me look good. given a specific set of costume, i'm lost. hehe. nevertheless i love classes with mama G (:

happy chinese new year and merry christmas
i like the costume! xinru and me (:

p.s anyone willing to take me out of misery ?

2008-03-29T11:10:00.006+08:00

cap day - and i love him((:
i like my cap(:
showing off his food ...
and thanx for being by my side (:

my life been quite on a down hill lately. oh my gosh! i have the most hateful grandmother one can ever have. i forgot her address! once i get it, i'll blog it online and those who needs to let go(frustrations or anger) can go over and burn her house down. i've never seen such a bitch at how grandmother could be. oh well, since young she never really given us any cash, except for some pathetic $4 when we visit her place during the festive hari raya season. but even then $4. hahas. u can practicall get maybe 2 bubble tea and then everything is just in the tummy waiting to be pass out. see how much $4 can do? besides that, she is such a control freak that she only loves her children that listens to her everything that she has to say even if it meant controlling ur spouse money!! oh dear! lucky my daddy is clever enough not to reveal his savings amount. if not trust me, she will be staying in this house right this very minute.! *goose bums standing* but i think the whole world should know another flaw of her! and trust me - I DUN EXAGGERATE. she has a black black heart. When my grandmother sees someone she knows living off a better life than her, she is not happy. she bribe me with a $50 to love her more instead of my aunty! yucks! even in another 100 years, i think that will never happen!

why am i telling the world so much about a witch who happens to be trap in my grandmother's body - recently she has been stressing my daddy who is her son for money. and due to too much stress, she has caused my dad's past problems of his heart to surface. just a guess: she wans my daddy dead! oh gosh. such terrible mother cum grandmother. being her eldest grandchild, i totally despise her. anyone of the people out there who is angry, u guys can take a ball paper, write down ''bibi's grandmother'' den step it, crush it, throw it. by all means, do what u guys want, i cant be bothered in a million years (:

and if anyone out there has a similar grandmother like mine. BEWARE of her. she is a witch trap in a human body. *yucks*

thats mostly bout the dumb grandmother of mine. in addition to the problem she is adding on to, my life has been going downhill lately. i dunno why. its so sad! argh!!! :( i want to go back to last year where everything seems perfect for me.

though i know running away will not solve the problem. but thats wad i wanna do everyday now. just run as far as i could. save me :(

2008-03-24T00:05:00.002+08:00

Emcee-ing was super fun(: while i finally change to a new blog skin! and waiting for my dear boy to come back from Bangkok! i wanna shop too!! (:

baby! i miss u ((((: hw am i going to survive ns!!! argh! :(

2008-03-23T13:05:00.007+08:00

and they boy is far away from home now(: while he is enjoying his shopping spree in Bangkok! i'm here blogging abt last week! hahas. went swimming with the boy as i longed for the sun and need a bit of weight lost! hehe. the boy nw declare proudly that he can swim(: hahas. while i was playing water like most of the time! haha!

den we took plenty of photos! oh well! when u have me. u have pictures(:

happy girl!
play play play
hangman!
yucks. my hair is so wet!!!
he just graduated . hehe
hehe. and i love this boy very much (:

hope i can into the uni i want(:! *praying*

2008-03-18T11:33:00.015+08:00

just uploaded all the photos in my cam (: cant really remember when i took it. hehe

happy happy couple (:
nice sky !
nice nice estate!
he play with the swing (:
climbing up stairs of wonder (:

went for NUS open house the other day, hahas. nice school really (: i'm a little lazy to blog abt NUS cos it was raining half way thru and i've decided to enrol in to it (:

i look so sick :(

its been quite some time since both of us visited terminal 3 and i really cannot remember when (: but i find the photos cute and lovable to share with everyone. not to mention, terminal 3 is really beautiful while i wonder how much did it cost altogether. oh well ..............

i just went there for the fun of it, hoping to see something cute and funny to laugh it off or sth..

the retard one (:
the hyper active one (:
welcome welcome (:
look like maze (:
the guy .
the girls ....
yay. and i love my boy

2008-03-13T21:36:00.004+08:00

and i haven been blogging for quite some time. lots to do and i'm working late(: hehe. anyway 11 march was my dear sister-hanis birthday and i haven had time to see her.! girl. meet up next week (: and another of my friend-jasmen birthday on 12th and i had a fun time smashing chocolate and strawberry doughnut on his face. and the next day is mine. so many people turning 19 (:

lots of responsibilities i guess as we grow older by a year.! hahas. lots of challenges and lots of fun (: gonna enjoy this year and hopefully get admitted to the university i really want . maybe lose more weight and become prettier too. hahas. so many birthday wishes ! hahas

and i'm really happy today. been smiling since the clock strike 12 midnight last night and a few more hours before my birthday ended. lots of wishes from all my friends (:

this year is really a great year for me. got all the presents that i really wanted (: hehe. really happy. though it was raining the whole day and it spoil the boy's plan to bring me to sentosa and esplanade. i still enjoy myself very much. i love u baby. thanx for celebrating my 19th with me!

the very nice boy friend of mine.

he spend so much on me today. hmmm.

movie - step up
lunch - fig and olive
present - a very sweet slipper (:
starbucks (:
he made somethin but still very secretive about it. haha!

thanx baby for the day (:

2008-03-03T09:04:00.012+08:00

and yesterday went to celebrate my birthday along with siying long long time birthday (: haha! and i am so touched with the guys, well i was expecting a birthday cake but i wasnt expecting them asking the breeks people to sing out loud and the whole breeks diners sang along! hehe. and the guys got me a wallet and slippers! yay!!

after 6 years, still bonded closely together though some had stuffs like ns, and overseas trip but thats true friendship(: i'm touched!

the birthday cake i love (:
yay(: still celebrating birthdays after 6 years
cut! cut! cut!
kill! kill! kill!and i love them a lot a lot (:

29 feb 2oo8

hahas! finally the dance pictures up (: ohmy! only 2 rehersals and 1 performance and i found so many new friends and fallen in love with them. bonds are so great inventions (:

though it was only a few mins, i enjoyed the rehersals, the makeups, the photo taking, the non-stop talking (: and in such a short time, i was exposed to another side of life's surprises (:

thanx for the happy happy rehersal days!
i love them - charmain, pam, mega and allen!!
the handsome merith (:
going crazy all night us and sha - the experience cheographer
yay (: and i love the whole grp of them!!

2008-02-23T11:06:00.007+08:00

due to me being busy everyday, i finally get a breather on a bright saturday morning(: and darling been complaining that all the pictures are not up! (:

Friday - 22 Febuary o8

had photoshoot! hehe! i was so excited and i really think the make up artiste did a good job in making some one look really pretty! hehe. so happy!! (: and i spend an hour plus thinking of different poses while the camera man snapped non stop. felt like i was on top of the world. every girl has their chance of being glamorous and mine came at that point of time. the feeling was really nice la! hard to describe! (:

but the photos will only come 6 mths later i hope. so yea(:

Tuesday - 19 Febuary o8

yay! and tuesday was baking day at the boy's house! and we kinda burnt a few utensils here and there and after several round of practise we got perfect cookies and it was nice! so happy, i can bake better than him! hehehe

will bake more for my friends next valentine perhaps! (:

monday - 18 Febuary o8

had driving practical super early in the morning, while i was regretting putting in for the morning slot. i was enjoying myself on the road soon after. and darling being a sleepy head was still in bed when i finish my driving! and i had to go over to wake that sleepy boy up! well we went to catch ps i love you!! (: so so so sweeet! but i didnt cry during the movie cos i knew the story!! :( but hillary swank is hot! and irish guys are handsome! oh gosh. den we walked from raffles to suntec to buy baking ingredients for tuesday! taking all the photos we can!

it came from my mouth ...............
...... and he caught it!!! HAHAHAHA
and we found the merlion of Singapore
my boyfriend is very happy! lols
yay! the happy happy girl!

2008-02-17T21:41:00.002+08:00

life - full of surprises(: this few days is just priorities after priorities to ensure that my time management do not neglect the people i love and do not disappoint the people who puts hope in me! well even after school life requires time management skills! and i certainly suck at it! :(

i met the guys to celebrate mingyi's birthday! hahas! OMG! i miss them so much and besides kakwai and boxiong the rest came! hehe`- so sorry i was super late cause i wasn't feeling too good so slept till i regained back my energy. chang ming was as usually late! ''-_________- lets see how much the guys have changed.

ChangMing - bad habits dun change as he is forever late in appointments and i think the bad habit is rubbing off me :( but on top of that he is always there for me!!!
SiZheng - very handsome guy commented by my mummy and due to all the weight carrying, i think his 6 pacs will be out soon! nice broad! hehe
ChenGang - think he grew thinner but happier, always smiling away !!
SiaoHwee - please take care my dear friend, you look so tired ! but very smily and i think shuai too! hee!
KahHuei - the grown one! hahas. just please dun forget this friend of urs!!! he is in camp now! take care (:
HuiXiang - hahas. crazy about gambling these days! and please get a hair cut! i can do it for free i promise!! told u the way i'll do it! and do not turn into a robot!
ZongYuan - cut his hair, worked out cos his arms looks bigger, other than that, still nice to bully. hehe. take care for ur china trip!
MingYi - birthday boy got new soccer boots yet insists on playing soccer with slipper. wonder what is wrong with hiM! haha!

well, these few people never fail to brighten up my life! hahas (: how can i forget them! and good luck for the soccer match next sunday! i'll bring my pom pom! hehe

when they went for movie, i went to meet my darling boy. i'm so sorry i've been ignoring you for 2 weeks. it was hectic. i hope u enjoyed the slow stroll, the shopping, the satays (: just a normal date where happy couples date each other!!

while strolling along the Singapore River, we encountered 5 newly-wed taking wedding pictures by the river! 5 in a row. hmMm. eye-opener to me! (:

2008-02-14T22:55:00.004+08:00

i miss my brother! hahas

honestly no matter how much you initially dont like somebody, as days goes by, we give chances and get to know someone. and now when time for seperation, only tears can answer how much we have come to treasure these people.

and i just made a new friend when i was away for holiday and now he's going back to medan after spending 2 weeks with my family and i'll miss being a small sister!! :( the feeling on relying on someone elder than us to burden family responsibilities is so relieving! and now i have to face back to reality that i am the eldest again. so saddening. wish that he will be here for as long as he can and take over my place as an elder brother.! it wouldnt hurt to be mummy's little girl!

at the airport ...................
before bording ............thanx for being here for my family (: